Don't want to be here anymore

[Tomuchcake]

Life is a total mess

Life is just to tough

Been fighting for to long

Mental health board doesn't seem to get many people on

Hi tomuchcake, do you have any friends or neighbours you could speak to, as well as us? Do you have any hobbies which give you joy/comfort? We are here for you, please keep talking

I have no one in real life to talk to

I don't have any hobbies really

ToMuchcake. Please don't think that things will always be this bad. There was a poster on here a few weeks ago who felt like you and I am so sorry to say the next week her husband posted to say she had died. She so didn't want to carry on and I cried when I read her husbands post. Please don't let this be you. You have to be alive to give yourself time to enjoy better times. She touched so many people and she never knew. We would all grieve for a stranger that we have just met online because you inherently have value. You need to try and keep going so you can enjoy a better life in the future. You won't always feel like this, my darling

Hope you're okay, Toomuchcake. I have felt like you do many times but you aren't alone.

Pink peter is right, don't do something which cannot be reversed. No one knows what the future holds, yours could be bright and what a tragedy it would be if you didn't get to see it. Please do as other posters suggest re Samaritans/doctor- you have nothing to lose.

I have no 1 in the world who cares. And I am a complete mess

we care about you

We care about you. Have you been on mumsnet local to check for any local meet ups? Or any internet friendship websites? You deserve friends.

Internet friends? How does that work.
I have low confidence and just couldn't do that

I'm messaging smartians by text, but it's very slow

I last sent a text 15 minutes ago...
Oh well

I will be your friend

Thanks
ijustlovecake

I'll be your friend x

And well done for trying the samaritans....bear with them, I imagine Friday night is a busy time

Thanks ebay

I feel like I'm drowning, I can't get my breath and all there is, is a black hole waiting

Why are the mental health boards so quiet

Cake, you sound so poorly , can you see that? I'm so sorry for you. Can you sleep? Maybe make a plan of action, baby steps/hour by hour, including resolving to see a doctor (or going to a&e if necessary). You could try re-posting in chat and linking to this thread but I suspect it will be quiet there too.

A doctor can't do anything for me

Cake, how are you feeling this morning?

I've been where you are. It's a horrible, lonely, isolated place where you feel that nobody understands what you're going through. Ending it all is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Have the Samaritans come back to you? Have you seen your GP at all regarding your AD dosage? Please keep posting on here if it helps.

You really are not alone in how you feel - and things can get better.

A doctor can help, please see someone. Why do you think they can't do anything for you?

Maybe you could tell us what we can do to help? You obviously came here because you want some help and support, but it is hard for us to know what to say and unfortunately few of us are able to chat in real time. That doesn't mean no one is thinking about you, though.

Why don't you tell us a bit more about yourself? Favourite foods/movies/books? Talking to people can help, even if we don't talk about anything important! Or if you want to vent about your job/relationship/anything then I am sure someone will be by to listen. Just start by talking and go from there.

Hope today is a little better for you. You can get through this black patch and things will start getting better, I promise.

x