New Health anxiety thread as the other is full

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Hi starting a new thread as the other one is full ..
anyone welcome

I think I have health anxiety but haven't been diagnosed but if something is wrong with me, I always think it's the worst, I am addicted to googling my symptoms &a I can go to the doctor three times a week for the same problem convinced they are wrong ?

Over the past year I have obsessed massively iver blood clots in my legs blood clot in my lung, that j would have an aneurism in child birth, bowel cancer, cervical cancer, stomach cancer, breast cancer, a brain tumour and now most recently tonsil cancer. I get upset now and again because it takes over my days. On Sunday I waited three hours to see a doctor in a walk in centre to be told what two doctors had already told me ??

Aley - my current obsession is tonsil cancer too (owing to a throw away remark by a doctor).

It's so wearing, and so hard to work out what is purely anxiety symptoms and what is other symptoms. I'm living from GP appt to GP appt at the moment. It's horrible and I find it so humiliating too - I embarrass myself really. It's been a while since it was this bad, but it's clouding my every waking moment. I keep imagining my boys lives without me.

I'm on citalopram but it isn't working at the moment.

right well , im going back to the doctors at 4.30 ...after iv noticed a lymph glad up in my groin ...feels hard ..so gone into total panic ....thinking the worst already... im terrified ....but least if i go doctor can feel and see ...as aparently they can feel if bad or not ...
so scared ...
will this anxiety ever end ...

Wow pea green. What started your tonsil obsession? I feel embarrassed too, I'm so sick of this. I forgot that I have also had obsessions with skin cancer too !

Hi: Newbie here - I hope you don't mind me joining in for some hand-holding. I'm post-menopausal and over the last few years have had several episodes of unexplained pain (breast, headaches and now abdominal) and each time have been convinced I have cancer of some sort. The abdominal pain has been continuous for over a year, and I've had numerous tests, all finding nothing.

My anxiety about all this has been getting worse and worse and I'm now off work, on ADs, in counselling and STILL convinced it's only a matter of time before they find something deadly, by which time it will be too late.

Like others I find it completely exhausting, and I feel guilty feeling so bad when I don't even know if I have anything to feel bad about, IYKWIM. Next on the list is a transvaginal ultrasound which I'm convinced will find ovarian cancer, even thought I have had the blood test for it which came back clear. It sucks being me at the moment

I have one swollen tonsil which won't go down - chances are it's irritated from the (confirmed by swab) tonsillitis I've had the last fortnight, but that's not what my brain is telling me.

I've had obsessions with skin cancer, leukaemia, DVTs, and breast cancer in the past too.

It's horrible, and I hate what it does to my life. And I feel such a fool talking about it - I will happily say to people that I have anxiety, but hate saying it's health anxiety.

How do you move on from one thing before obsessing over another?

I have obsessed over many things including many of those listed above... All have turned out to be fine but it took me months and once even a year before I was happy whatever it was okay and moved on to the next thing.

Anyone know of a way to access CBT on the nhS without going through your gp?

I always feel like . Ok the last thing was fine but this is gonna be the thing that won't be. Then that's fine and then I go again with the next thing it seems like I'm just waiting for the day that I'm told bad news!

welcome Tag - and everyone , can so relate to all you have said ...

Pea - iv had all those fears just this last month ....leukemia being my current fear ...specially as iv just found a glad up ... but just been to the doctors today and she's assured me its fine ...

Flowers- iv just started CBT from the NHS had session 2 last week so far ok ..got homework to do ..but im struggling ...got to re train my thoughts ..

Aley- i feel the same , get over one thing and another one arrises ...

why do we get like this ? comfort to know im not alone and we can support one another .

Hugs to us all

I'd love to know too. Why is it that some people can see a mark on their skin and think "oh it's just a mole" whereas others can have the same thing and immediately think cancer. Is it to do with chemicals I the brain or purely thoughts?

Hello to the newbies

I have an optician appointment tomorrow because of my eye pains and I'm completely terrified that theyre going to find something bad, so nervous. I can move on from some things when my symptoms go away, but aneurysms are just something I can never move away from because you will never know it until it's too late.x

Glad I found this
Haven't been to a doc about anxiety but I feel as though I suffer from it
Ever since 2013 I've noticed changes within my self I broke down in work not like me felt as though I couldn't breathe and felt like I had a lump in my throat then just burst into tears
I lost my grandad in that year then 3 months after my dad was diganised with cancer since then it's been a struggle can be ok for a while then just out the blue can feel stressed and panicky
I find I can be worrying about my health and yesterday out the blue felt faint at around 8pm never passed out I lay down straight away and ate some chocolate had to phone nhs as I panicked thinking what if I do pass out its just me and my daughter at home I've got the docs/nurse on mon so I was going to ask about this anxiety
I do have friends that suffer from this and panic attacks
Feel ok just now but will no doubt panic later in case it happens again

Sorry for the long post lol
Xsarahx

Als30. My anxiety started when we lost my sister in law extremely suddenly from a blood clot. I all of a sudden went into major panic that I had a blood clot I broke down in the doctors office he sent me for a blood test literally to ease my mind. I found it hard to keep myself together at the hospital and then had a panic attack in the toilet. It took over my life! Then I got the results back, all ok. I was fine for Abit and then my coisen got diagnosed with lymphoma . We have grew up together and are only 6 weeks apart in age. This and the grief of my sis in law was too much I think & I have been awful ever since. I can't believe some things being written I could of wrote myself !!

Oh and a few weeks after my sister in law I found out I was pregnant , que 9 months of worry!

Lost my dad just at the start of feb was quite sudden no of us was expecting that
If I have a pain anywhere I'm convinced it's cancer or something else broke my 2 wee toes a few ago and spent most of my days off work worrying about blood clots been to the docs quite a few times over the past few years thinking I've got this or that to be told I'm ok
Since yesterday and talking to a friend who has anxiety I now feel it's time to ask the doc about it and get answers xxx

Really surprised to see blood clots are such a common fear. I'm terrified of them, every leg pain is one it's exhausting. I haven't lost anyone close to me to trigger anything I fear it's just there x

Been reading through this and a lot of folk I can relate too
I was fine up till a few years ago my main health fears are cancer blood clots (anywhere) strokes heart attacks
I even freaked out last night when I felt all faint for no reason had to phone nhs24 even though the doc I seen said there's nothing they are concerned about I'm not really convinced on edge at the moment incase it happens again feel ok though except for a mild headache that comes and goes another thing to worry about
Just wish I knew why I feel like this at times definitely saying about the way I'm feeling on Monday been putting it off thinking no one will understand xx

Well I had my ultrasound and the radiographer couldn't find anything to be concerned about. She had to do a lot of looking and it was very painful.

Afterwards I burst into tears - mostly relief but also concern that I STILL haven't found a physical cause for the pain. The radiographer mentioned a friend of hers who had unexplained stomach pain which turned out to be a parasite but the NHS blood tests didn't find anything so she had to go private. So I guess I will be looking into that (the start of the pain did coincide with a holiday in Sri Lanka).

Anyway, I'm going to try and relax and enjoy the sunshine this afternoon. Hope everyone is having a reasonable day.

Feeling ok today was quite nervous this morning though
Now getting my self ready for work later in a way not looking forward to it lol but needs must
Went through a stage last night thinking I had diabetes just wish these concerns would just do one
Sat here with a funny feeling in stomach either acid or dread for work

But going to get through this and breathe and think of happy thoughts xxxx

Awaiting blood tests! Feel sick about it but trying to keep busy!

Hope tests go okay aley

I've gone from worrying about my own health to worrying about my boyfriends now. He has a cold sore and was sweating a bit in bed last night. He had a headache this morning but it's gone now but yet I'm worried he's got leukaemia. It's driving me insane.

I have an appointment this week about maybe going back in some medication or trying some cut. Fingers crossed something works because I'm going out of mind. Longest relapse ever.

UPdate.

So after seeing the doctor 4 times ( same one twice ) about my tonsil , the doctor sat me down and basically told me No this isn't anything bad, don't worry & having a blood count done which came back okay. I felt a little better , so why am I still googling ?!

hello everyone.

I'm all panicky and adrenalin filled because my dh has made an appointment with the dr about a pain. It's most likely muscular pain but of course my mind has gone crazy. He says he dreads having to go to the Dr because he knows I go into panic mode. And that's not good because what if he puts off seeing a Dr because he doesn't want me to worry?

Hi guys, I'm a newbie,hope you don't mind me joining.

Treacle, I know what you mean with your DH sometimes I feel so guilty as at the moment I feel like such an emotional burden on my own DH. He has a stressful job and I just add to it. I feel like he worries about how I would cope if there was anything wrong with him.

I never used to be this way, we both had had various minor things happen with our health but were overall very healthy and active and I kind of felt invincible. I was also a big believer in "don't borrow trouble from tomorrow. We were so bloody happy!!!!

Then I had dd and I loved her so ferociously and worried about every tiny little thing, I would shout and swear at DH if he didn't do exactly as I wanted him to with the baby. He didn't understand that in my head if he didn't do it the "right way" something terrible would happen.

Was coping ok until four months Ago when a smear revealed high grade 3 cells, had two procedures and have another smear in three months.

Most women have this procedure and get on with their lives however due to various symptons I cannot.

Been diagnosed with gastritis (probably anxiety related) and now a kink in my waterworks that may be causing some of my other symptons.

However my brain just goes Cancer,cancer,cancer.cancer......

Aley, are you like me where you feel momentarily comforted by docs reassurances and then within a couple of hours you are reanalysing everything they said??