New Health anxiety thread as the other is full

[40slady]

Hi starting a new thread as the other one is full ..
anyone welcome

[crabapple34]

How is everyone doing?

[43mumof2]

im in such a bad place at the moment , feeling like a rabbit in head lights ....

[Sallystyle]

Hi everyone.

I am having a bad day as well. I was doing very well with my HA for months. Then I got an offer of my dream job and then it came back. I am scared of being really happy it seems.

So I am worrying about a pink mole on my back. I had never seen it before but dh says it has been there ever since he met me 9 years ago and it hasn't changed. Of course I think it is cancer. I can't really see it properly but it is bigger than my normal ones, around 4-5 mm I would say.

I also have a mole on my bum which is very dark and tiny. I have had this checked loads but it is worrying me again, but I know it has not changed as dh takes pictures of this one.

I have an appointment a week today to see my GP so I will ask him to check my moles then but that is so long away. Am I right in thinking pink moles aren't melanoma and those pink moles usually aren't the dangerous ones?

I hope everyone is having a decent day today

[crabapple34]

Hi madmum, welcome to the thread. Sorry to hear you've been having a hard time lately.

[Madmum303]

I am so glad I found this thread. I felt so alone before reading some of these posts. I have severe health anxiety and have finally been diagnosed with severe OCD on that basis, having gone privately because the GP loses patience and can't seem to understand I don't do this deliberately. In my case, it started badly in pregnancy and continued after my daughter was born. It's better some days and awful on others. It's mainly fear around her health and that anything she suffers will be my fault that I have. Her paediatrician (she's got reflux) is sufficiently concerned about me that I'm scared I will lose her. I took her to a&e this weekend with the full support of my normal- minded husband because she refused to feed and did very few wet nappies in a week. Now I'm scared it will be help against me by the paed and that she will chalk it up to my anxiety, though actually I am getting a little better because a few weeks ago I wouldn't have waited days before taking her in. While we were there a doctor examined her throat with a pen torch from his pocket which he didn't wipe first and it went in her mouth. She's 13 weeks. Now I'm panicking about all sorts of infections she might've got from his previous patients. Aaargh. I know that it's highly unlikely she'll have anything (and please don't reinforce my fears by sympathising with that particular one otherwise I start to believe I'm being totally reasonable) but I so badly wanted this baby and to enjoy her and it's like one problem resolves (so they helped me sort out the feeding issue and I was overjoyed as she fed and did a huge pee right there !) but as soon as I let myself relax a new thought pops into my head and boom a new cycle of worry kicks off. I really envy those who don't have to live with this and have many fewer fears about their babies and their own health too. It feels unfair and worse when you feel you are being judged for it by medical professionals.
Hugs, Jen x

[PeterSpots]

I wish that was true. So how do I get rid of all these horrible things. Seriously thinking about ADs. Seeing GP Thursday & gynae tomkttow

[WasWats]

I will also bet you it has not reoccurred, our minds are very very powerful.

[WasWats]

I will bet you the stress has done it.

[PeterSpots]

waswats very interesting..............my tingling face came on the same day I read an article about TN then I panicked..........6 months later. My pelvic pain is a reoccurance of something I had years ago. Has it returned or has the stress over the last 6 months made it come on..

[WasWats]

I had pain. Lots of it. I had crippling jaw pain on Christmas Eve. I was sure it was actually a heart attack, I had read an article that week saying how jaw pain is a sign. There was nothing wrong at all with either my teeth or heart. I had done it to myself.

I found I was constantly reading articles on-line about cancer etc, the daily mail is the worst for it. I would read them telling myself I was doing it to reassure myself that I didn't have any of the symptoms that the person had, as always their cancer had been spotted too late and they were dying. Within minutes of reading guess what ...... I had multiple symptoms.

[PeterSpots]

Big hug buttercup

[buildmeabuttercup]

I had lots of pain with anxiety. It's awful because it just reiterates the belief there's something wrong, it'd really cruel.

It sounds mad but this time of year is the worst. My daughters birthday in 4 weeks and yet again I'm convinced I won't be here to see it. Breaks my heart I'm struggling to buy things etc. So irrational x

[PeterSpots]

Did you have pain from your anxiety? That's what I can't move on from

[WasWats]

I did every type of therapy you can think of. Nothing helped long term. I finally bit the bullet and wen t on a low dose of meds. It was hell for the first three months of it and now I am a lot more rational and am able to cope better.

[PeterSpots]

I have to admit I can't cope now the pelvic pain has come back. I don't know where to find the strength

[PeterSpots]

I began to get extremely stressed over the face pressure/tingling when I was told it was a brain virus. Since then I have had a problem with my buttocks & pelvic pain. My face is twitching as I write this. If this is in my control how can I feel pain free again. I haven't had any problems for 10 years physically or emotionally.

[crabapple34]

That's a good way of looking at it. Its too easy to get into a negative spiral.

Do you mind if I ask what has helped with your anxiety waswats?

[WasWats]

Your mind is doing this to you. So imagine harnessing that power and using it in a way to make yourself better.

[PeterSpots]

It is a shitter
Face pressure/tingling
Aching knees
Aching ankle
Aching bum
Anxiety
Cramping legs
Need I go on......

[crabapple34]

It's a shitter isn't it.

[buildmeabuttercup]

I have no idea how it creates all these symptoms it just does and it sucks. I hope you're feeling better today x

I've done a test and it's negative. Normal people would be relieved but nope not me, must be ectopic or something else. God I hate anxiety so much.

[PeterSpots]

I'm scared what's causing all this & making the right decision. I'm getting shooting pains in my ankles now. How can depression/anxiety do all this. I don't think anyone can tell me really. Could be depression or menopause. I need to talk to somebody

[crabapple34]

peterspots You should definitely get back to yoga then! Maybe you could try some gentle stuff to start off with. What's putting you off taking the ADs?

Build Congrats on the negative test. DVT has been my "thing" lately too. Hope you feel calmer in the coming days.

waswats how are you?

I had a bad night last night. I've actually been okish the past week or so but felt really panicky when I went to bed. Shaking, palpitations etc. It seems to happen every couple of weeks or so. Not pleasant but reading MN always calms me down and I managed to get off to sleep.

[PeterSpots]

I can't bear all this muscle tension. Have cymbalta AD in the cupboard. Thinking of taking it but once I do it's a long road. Could wait to see if consultant sees anything in blood test for perimenopause (49 1/2) I think they think it's anxiety. Face man wants to see me again & he'll just say you are making it worse. Just want the nightmare over

[WasWats]

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