Oh hang on, I think I misread your post, the bit at the end was a comment to antimatter? I thought it was what your GP had said and they were refusing you medication on the grounds you'd become too high functioning!
I mean it's still ridiculous, but phew!
The only thing I'm slightly nervous about with medication is that they aren't usually compatible with pregnancy and breastfeeding are they? I'm not planning on getting pregnant in the near future, but in a year or two probably. And it might take a while for us to conceive due to DH issues so it could potentially be a long time I am off it.
Other than that... I am absolutely desperate to find something which will make my brain work more normally. I have to go to bed (I'm nearly 2 hours late already) but let me tell you a story from this morning.
I am an English teacher, I teach Business English at various companies. This morning's lesson begins at 8am and I'm always half asleep when I get there, because I wake up at 6.40, it takes me at least half an hour to come to and so I'm still half asleep on the train and freezing walking there too and I tend to zone out when I don't speak to people. I never speak to anybody between waking up and arriving at this class. I usually arrive just before or at the same time as my students. This mornings I resolved to be more awake and instead of opening the folder and not having a clue what I have planned until I see it, I started running through a new idea of how to teach a concept (yes, approximately 3 minutes before the start of class, how organised of me!!) and got quite excited about it. As it was a deserted road I even ran through the explanation out loud to reduce the zoning out from lack of speaking.
So I arrived in the classroom, before the students for once. Got myself a drink, felt ready, prepared, etc. Last minute before they arrived I briefly toyed with writing something on the board to begin and then realised I should get my phone out as I use it to keep the time during the lesson. So I stood up to get it, they walked in at this moment, which threw me and I forgot why I was standing up. In a bid to "be professional" I beamed a big smile and them and said "Good morning!" and even went to shake hands. Why?!?! I never shake hands with them unless it's been a long gap or there is a new student, and the one I offered my hand to was clearly a bit taken aback and said something, which I have now forgotten. In reply, I mumbled something about trying to be professional, except realised halfway through saying that that that wasn't the kind of thing people normally say out loud, so I just sort of trailed off, and started looking in my bag for something. There was nothing in there (
) so I sat down and busied myself with the signing in sheet and sort of hoped that nobody had noticed. In a tiny room with four people where the focus is on me. Right.
About five minutes into the lesson, I realised my phone was in my coat pocket. On my chair. I hadn't needed to stand at all. And to top it all off when I tried to write something on the board I wrote "both" under the heading of "both" instead of writing the actual verb that I intended to write. That, I managed to laugh of as "needing coffee".
I am actually a good teacher, honest. But things like this make me wonder how anybody takes me seriously at all! Of course, this also happened in an engineering company, where the employees could not be less ADHD if they tried. Sigh.