community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

I wasn't aware I had bowel diverticuli. On the plus side if they do get stuck they should sit there gradually releasing opiates for a while so at least I'll die happy.

Ahhh foraged wild plum fool. sounds so much better than scavenged feral plums

Ugh. I don't know how clinicians can bandy around phrases like "maladaptive coping strategies" and preach to me about crisis plans and recovery action plans and taking responsibility and all this crap, when that's exactly what I tried to do while I was still rational before the depression hit and when I knew the depressive episode was coming. I absolutely bloody begged for the treatment I knew would work for the episode I knew was coming, and nobody would listen to a bloody word of it. They just waited for me to crash completely. And now I'm the one living with the consequences. I should've been on phenelzine weeks ago.

Anyone who wants all their teeth to be slightly further apart from each other should try the "eating poppy seeds" technique.

am pretty much held together by a system of maladaptive laws and behaviours but I like them, must be v frustrating to feel unjustly accused of them

had NO sleep last night thanks to adult offspring and her junior having no respect for the principles of sleep hygiene which also rule my life GRRRR

as soon as have dropped off that small annoying adorable child I will do horsebeasts, wash self, go to see schlongbeast

what are you up to?

Ah I know I do have some maladaptive anxiety behaviours, but I've a feeling they're just plonking out a phrase because it's easier to say that than to say what they mean. I don't know what's less maladaptive than recognising one's own warning signs and attempting to access treatment which has worked before. So frustrating.

NO sleep? Really? None? You poor thing.

I am lying in bed. Phenelzine works but it makes me sleep a lot and gives me headaches/gut pain/weird twitches.

Hope the horsicles are well.

Glad you're going to wash inbetween contact with horsicloid substances and MIYL. A wash sounds like a good plan and I shall take inspiration (though not literally as inspiring water rarely helps a situation) from it.

do those effects wear off? do you find some drugs kick in quickly but then you get all the side effects?

apparently there are also tests now to tell you whether you are one of these people who metabolise meds fairly swiftly or not which might be partly why some don't work but give horrible side effects, or something like that

lithium isn't metabolised so is of little use to me

The nausea, gut pain, and to a lesser extent, the headaches will reduce IIRC, but the twitches, sleepiness, and hunger are here to stay I think - hence my interest in trying a non-hydrazine MAOI like tranylcypromine.

Drug metabolism is fascinating if extraordinarily complex and incomprehensible. I believe, though i may be misinformed, that men are generally more sensitive to codeine, and women, requiring a higher dose, are at risk of their pain being undertreated, for example. But yes, lots of fascinating stuff about liver enzymes and suchlike.

This is where it'd be handy to have some scientific education

I need some relationship education instead of getting ready like I imagine the Mentally Normal do (maybe have a bath, put on make up? that kind of thing) I ate half a block of feta, 4 slices of toast and marmite, a twinkie and a small packet of doritos and did a maladaptive behaviour unsurprisingly feel even more tired than before

don't know why it makes me so anxious, he's nice and I like him

oh and two falafel

You can never have too many falafel.

That's so odd. I just spent several minutes earlier on wimbling about falafel. Falafelafelafelafelafelafelafel. And joy of joys, I have leftover tahini sauce!

Sorry you're tired Mitch.

It's amazing what a high proportion of human words have repetition. You can get stuck on them a lot though.

What are twinkies like?

Hope the anxiety fades a bit for you Mitch.

Oh godding hillocks. Why do I have to eat too many pecans and have a bloody allergic reaction NOW? This is going to be a fun evening.

I usually only react to walnuts

Series 5 of Star Trek TNG finished!

Do you prefer falafel made with cooked chickpeas or with raw and soaked ones? I've never tried it with cooked chickpeas. I did have some falafel from a kit once but they just made me wish I was eating pakora.

AIBU to be sad that Sandi Toksvig is

a) happily married
and b) way, way out of my league?

Falafel have to be made from raw, soaked chickpeas. Tinned chickpeas make for a sloppy falafel in my experience.

I thought that might be the case - thanks for confirming it's not worth trying

Dammit I want falafel now.