Diagnosed with depression but I feel like such a fraud.

[ginhag]

Can't be arsed to name change, haven't been on here for ages anyway.

I've got a chronic pain condition and it has been really, really getting me down. I'm bit of a 'coper' and shit at asking for help but I got to the point where I just couldn't manage anymore and I felt like I was unravelling and all I wanted to do was sleep. I felt (feel) awful and finally told my very lovely doctor.

I'm now on sertaline but still feel low, exhausted, sad and fairly useless tbh. But the big thing is that I feel like I've made the depression up, as an excuse for just being, well, a bit shit really.

My lovely DH is doing his best to support me and I have 2 beautiful children and they all just deserve more really. I feel like I'm letting everyone down all the time. I'm so pissed off with myself for being like this.

I'm sorry I know there are many on here facing much worse than this, so feel free to tell me to bloody well pull myself together!

Ah yes my DD loves dried pasta, I'm pretty sure she would love putting it out. Might need to make a circle for her to follow beforehand so she gets what we're doing. I think pasta it is and then tuna.

CBT will help with unhelpful thoughts. I never held it in any regard until I tried it, but it's amazing the difference it makes. I finished an 8 month course right before I was diagnosed, and the techniques that I learnt during the sessions really helped in the following months.

I know what you mean about it being nice to talk to someone who understands, even the most patient of listeners can't quite grasp the extent. I remember the first time j felt the pain, I thought something had hit me and I had been cut. I couldn't work out why there wasn't any blood.

Hey lovely people. Wanted to reply to stuff but just feeling vague and exhausted so will try again later. I've read all the posts though and appreciate them loads x

No worries, hope your day improves.

Shit I feel awful today. I wish this would just stop I'm just so sad and I don't know why and I can't bear it!

DH and I have been together 14 years today (only got married this summer though!) I'm so lucky to have him.

My parents just rang and they were so sweet and concerned about the pain thing. I haven't told them about the depression. I think I sounded weird on the phone. Certainly felt weird.

dizzy did you test your circle out on the cat?

Hey gin, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling today. My thoughts have taken a turn for the worst now due to a conversation earlier - silly me should've known it'd trigger me but wasn't thinking at the time.

Huge congrats to you and DH, that's awesome :) sorry I can't say more, feeling down tonight and my head's all fuzzy but just wanted you to know you're not alone.

Crumbs just realised I forgot my sertraline this morning. That probably doesn't help my mood!
Does anyone else find you miss a single tablet and your mood just plummets? Can't believe it affects me so much just missing one, but it happened last time too!

The fuzzy feeling is probably down to missing a pill feeling! But it's nice to recognise the fact that that's probanly what it is, rather than you not improving in yourself. The chemical effects of a sudden halt in medication can be quite strong.

How are you feeling now Gin?

Just seen this ginhag, sorry you're feeling so low. Have you ever been to your local pain management clinic? My local one doesn't just do pain relief but looks at the emotional side of chronic pain, they offer acupuncture. I think this type of service could be really helpful to you.

Sorry to hear that yesterday was so bad gin. How's today going? And no I didn't get round to doing the cat circle, should hopefully today.

Hey dizzy. Went to work and acheived fuck all. Am now on a bus heading to meet DH and go for some food and then to a gig I booked ages ago. Was in tears before I left the house but determined to hold it together for DH's sake.

How are you? How's everyone else? Lost are you better today?

Have lots more to say and want to answer some stuff too so will be back later/tomorrow if anyone can be arsed to stick around. I like knowing there may be someone here x

I think there's lots of us sticking around gin. What gig is it? And what food are you having? I'm on a bus home at the moment, with bare cupboards at home. Noodles and frozen vegetables it is I think!

I've been on weed today, that's been about the highlight for me!

Good lord, not marijuana! I meant a child urinated on me

Lol! pot DP is dozing next to me and I just burst out laughing when I read your comment. He just looked at me like what the heck.

dizzy have you done the cat circle today? I'm intrigued as to the results.

Thanks gin I am feeling better today. Been rather up and down but finding it far easier to deal with today. I'm back and forth for a while so will try to reply if you pop back. I do hope you enjoy the gig!

Ooh got to go, DP has just made me food.

I hope you managed to enjoy the gig gin.

And you did make me Pot, I was thinking that people weren't normally that honest about it!

I did try the cat circle, with pasta not tuna (DH wasn't on board with putting tuna on the floor). The cat just sat next to it! It does say in a relatively clear room, so perhaps it was her way of saying I should get on with some tidying.

Hey pot your weed made me smile too!

lost glad it was a better day.

dizzy love the cat's judgement on your domestic prowess!

My night didn't go brilliantly. Am in bed with a camomile tea. SO tired.

How are you feeling today gin?

Everybody will be pleased to know I have been on the weed again today. Toilet training was going so well...

Excellent stuff Pot How old is your little one?

Sorry to hear the night wasn't that good gin, anything particular or the general issues?