To be suicidal, want to leave my job and not work the notice?

[Countrymouse1]

I can't stop shaking and I have to work hard to stop my teeth chattering from nervousness. My workplace are harrassing me on the weekend, things are not going well there, I have started taking antidepressents a few days ago and don't know what to do. My doctor gave me diazapan to help me transition onto the ADs, because they are known for making people feel more anxious at first, and so far today I have taken 15mg Valium but I still feel so terrified. When I think of going to work on Monday my heart speeds up and I feel like I cannot go in there. If I hand my notice in on Monday, can I get a doctor's letter to sign me off sick for the notice period?

I only have two friends here in this city and one is basically ignoring me and I don't know why. I suspect it is just thoughtlessness and being busy with her own life and exciting stuff she's doing but it still hurts. Other friend doesn't seem to want to see me either. I feel I have nowhere to turn. I texted my brother earlier asking if he still loved me even though I'm a mess right now, and he didn't write back, and again I know he's going away for the a couple of days with no phone coverage and probably just unfortunately didn't see my last text before he left, but I feel so alone.

I feel suicidal because I am so afraid of the future, even though I don't want to kill myself, and i know that doesn't make sense. I just need a break from the fear and some hope that somebody can love me.

I don't know what to do.

Let the AD kick in first, so you have a clearer view on what you need to do.

Stressing out about work is horrid, I've been there

I have not been there for 2 years so think I'm not covered by any laws?

Would you feel better if you emailed them and said "I won't be returning on Monday, I will forward you a sick cert" and then put it out of your head for a day or two. See if the ad's kick in and you feel a bit better.

Whatever you do, don't go into work if it makes you feel like this - so what if you have to be on benefits for a while, you will get another job when you feel better. And it sounds as though this job is contributing to your illness anyway.

Don't worry about sending resignation letter, take the sick pay for the next week or two. I think though that A and E might be a good place to start, I don't think you should be on your own feeling like this. Maybe they can help you and see if a different med might help in the short term. Get stable, get some rest and then think about everything else.

stat sick pay is better than nothing, and you can always job hunt while you're on the sick.. then resign before your sick note ends.

they can't dismiss you while you're signed off.

Right now though, whats important is that you take yourself to the hospital and get seen, as others said, this could be the medication side effects and you need to get that checked out.

Please look after yourself.

Do you have any annual leave left to take?