Seriously ...not smoking is depressing me

[mosschops30]

I am thoroughly miserable, not craving or anything, just dont feel like me, I am unhappy, distant, just feel really out of sorts as if I am not me.

I know you probably think this is really sad, but its making me wanna have a fag just so as I can feel normal again ....does this make sense??

Well day 4 today, had a massive row with dh last night but resisted the temptation to go and buy fags.

Cant bear the thought of cleaning the house today though without a fag to reward myself at the end of it

Unfortunately I am turning to food as rewards instead which is not good, and according to the scales I have put on 2lb this week!!

I could make a nice coffee I suppose, that would be a treat!

Well I did go back to it at a low point a couple of months ago, having given up for 18 months. I think it perhaps did perk me up for a while, although I have a feeling it was only because it made me feel selfish (which is a rare treat as a mum) and somehow rewarded, rather than the cigarettes. However, now I am back to square one hating the damn thing and contemplating when I am going to give up again.

The best advice is that having given up once, you will not be satisfied with going back to it. You will try to give up again, and will be right back to square one if you have one now. Stick with it - I wish I had.

The brain is a very clever thing when it wants you to feed the addiction. You will come up with all kinds of bizarre reasons why you want/deserve a cigarette. I think it is (as my mum put it) kidology.

BTW in my experience it is a rare and lucky person who can give up and then go back occasionally on a night out. It preys on your mind too often and you tend to slip back. Up to you, but if you decide not to have the occasional one then try the nicotine tablets or lozenges. It is amazing how when you get a very occasional craving, these can help take your mind off it without actually having a cigarette.