What does it feel like to not be depressed ?

[Beauregard]

just wondering cos ive forgotton.

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Thanks so much to you both for posting
To answer your questions 2cute,my dd2 is 8 months old.
My sister killed herself 3 years ago after years and years of mental health probs and eating disorders so i know that that and my childhood living with her illness' is probably the main source of my depression but i also have very low self esteem and no confidence so i guess that doesnt help either.

On one of the other threads some one recommended a book called 'overcoming low self-esteem A self help guide using cognitive behavioral techniques' by melanie Fennel I wrote it down and mean to get it. Maybe that might help you while you are waiting for other help.
Its very sad about your sister. I would be devastated by that. I have two sisters. One of them is like me, troubled with depression and we are always trying to help each other. The other sister is wired differently and is much steadier.
You do sound lovely, and maybe you need to allow yourself to not always be nice. Cuz I do that, I'm so desperate to be nice my bad side is eating me up inside! Art therapy helps me, I paint horrible things sometimes!

Thanks rosylily -i will keep an eye out for the book

Morning pfnm. How are you this morning?

2cute-missed you again
Ive been ok today[fingers crossed]but who knows what mood tommorrow will bring?
Im going to try going to a toddler group in the morning with dd2,its one i used to take dd1 to so hopefully it shouldn't be too stressful.
Thanks again

I'm glad you were ok today. Have fun at the play group...

catch up with you tomorrow...night night

Had another reasonable day
Went to the toddler group ,had bad palpatations but it could have been the cup of caffinated tea i had
Im quite enjoying the walk to school each day but it is taking it's toll on me,i am so so tired.

Hi - glad to hear that you managed to get through another day and huge accomplishment by going to toddler group.
The palpitations will ease the more you go and the more relaxed you become.
These kind of steps may seem small to some but are really great big leaps for someone suffering with depression.
Your dds will only benefit from getting out and about however smaller distance.
Keep up the good work and try to keep smiling!!
Reward yourself by eating something naughty or by taking some time out to paint your nails or have a long soak in the bath!!
Hope you have another good day tomorrow.
Love Lindsey

Thankyou
It is nice to know that people although virtual actually care,i cant talk to friends about this as they are either wrapped up and busy with their own troubles or not interested.

Hi I had panic attacks this spring and they eventually went away. I feel that they were part hereditary, part hormonal/chemical and part a reaction to a dramatic lifestyle change.

You need to keep trying to love yourself PFNM. It is hard to do in the critical world we live in but you really are as worthy of love and respect as anyone. We all are.

Keep trying to keep each hour as positive as possible and recognise each small achievement you make and don't worry about the disappointments.

It isn't easy but donb't give up.

Big hugs xxx00
N

Also..

If things get out of hand phone the Samaritans - seriously!

You mustn't let it build up. They will listen to you.

Well done for going to the play group...must have been difficult but you did it! Try to keep pushing yourself to get out and don't forget that when you go to these play groups, there are other women who have been or are going through exactly the same thing as you.

its rather dull. actually.

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oh yes absolutley agree - just want to affirm that the drugs dont make it all utopian and life after the drigs wont be utopian. i certainly had wildly different expectations. i thought that the drugs would make be see butterflies and rainbows i life - alas. day to day is mostly drugery. so wanted to just say it - as i was asked.

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Also agree and the reason i dont want to take any more ad's is because i felt that because they just kind of numb your feelings a bit that you lose sight of your true feelings iykwim.

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Thanks Dior
Have you tried many ad's ?
Ive tried seroxat(worked the best i thought)
Sertraline
Venlafaxine
Think there was one more but cant remember
All finished off with a side of diazepam.

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Good luck with your Gp tommorrow

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