Reached my breaking point, hospital, OD

[CuppaBiccieBliss]

I am such an idiot. I spent last nite in hospital because I od' but I couldn't even get that right.
I can not go on like this anymore, I can't. My whole life has crumbled around me because of what they did to me. I am lying here furious with myself for failing again. The crisis team aren't interested, my cpn doesn't even know the real reason I have ptsd.
I am so alone

Cuppa, They discharged you?

Do you want to talk? Who are 'they'?

Yep they only kept me 12 hours then discharged me home and the crisis team to call

What did the crisis team say?

I can barely think straight. I'm exhausted with it all.

The crisis team just said that if I think I can keep myself safe tonight then that's that. Dp is here and thankfully he's been great.

LadyBlah I am not sure whether you were referring to me but if you are I mean the hospital.

Cuppa did you feel as if you were "well enough" to be discharged?

Community Mental Health Teams are failing so many of their patients, I have a friend with Paranoid Schizophrenia and a recent diagnosis of BPD every time she goes to visit them they up her dose of medication and send her on her way.

There was a time when she took herself to A&E as she was having suicidal thoughts and that's when they sectioned her, when her psychiatrist visited her in the hospital he told her she was well enough to go home. They are now giving her all the help and support she needs she had to do it by herself buy screaming and shouting at them for help.

I have been having similar thoughts on and off for a number of weeks now. I have had my meds up and I going to therapy but its not really helping. I have a doctors appointment Friday. Counselling tomorrow and Wednesday and I'm hoping I can get through.

OurMiracle

I used to work with people with Mental Health & Emotional Problems. I have never been quiet sure why also suggest talking therapy.

There is a thing called a "personal budget/direct payments" what they are offering to people who use their services, you might want to look it up.

I think it's to get to the underlying issues tbh. If I don't ask for help they won't get better. Just for me there is so much and honestly where do I start?

OurMiracle Are you in touch with your CMTH? If so I believe you can book an emergency appointment with them, if not go to your doctor tell him/her how you feel base this on your worst day TELL him/her you need to be referred to your local CMTH. It does take a while, in the mean while if you feel low and can't cope, go to your local A&E they will have a psychiatrist there who will access you, the waiting time will be pretty long though but you will be seen within a few hours. Tell them how you are feeling and that you don't feel as if you are getting enough help, be careful what you say because there is a chance they will section you, they normally will ask you if you want to go into hospital for a break, if you feel this might be appropriate for you go in, you will be in there voluntary so they can't force you to take medication and you can leave there for a few hours on condition that you go back at the set time given. Once you are in there they will help you, they will ask you what kind of benefits you claim, judging by what I have read you will be entitled to DLA (not to sure if you are already claiming it)

Once you've spent time in hospital it means that you do have a care need and they will steer you in the right direction of the people who should be helping you.

I hope my information has helped you, if you want to know anything else just ask.

I have been referred to iapt. Not sure about mental health team though but I have a counselling appointment at 10 tomorrow so hope that will help.

I was a few years ago placed in s psychiatric unit for three days and returned home after. It gave Me the assessments needed and medication sorted

Ourmiracle, I am so sorry that you are feeling like this too I am in no position to offer any advice but am certainly here for a chat x
I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore. I don't trust myself at home and I definitely wasn't well enough to be discharged from hospital. The crisis team hasn't phoned, nor has my cpn. I am so alone

I am in desperate needs of counselling or therapy of some sort but the waiting list is nearly a year and I have no priority. We have emailed a few charities but there is nothing local to us, I can't use public transport and we can ill afford taxis. We are penniless anyway

I just want someone to talk to really.

It's just so terrible how they are failing so many people who need help.

I really hope so. My cpn was supposed to phone today but she didn't. I don't think anyone really cares. Perhaps I am beyond help.

Thankyou so much maryshelley. I just feel let down, a failure, a sad excuse of a mum and every other piece of self pity crap you can think of.

I am having a total wobble. I want to do it again, I don't know how to stop or even control these thoughts.

Cuppa go to A&E I think you'd benefit from a short stay in hospital. Sorry I am only just now getting back to you.

I am calming down a bit now, thankfully. Tbh I'd be terrified to go back to a+e, they just don't seem to care.

Sorry you are struggling. A and E are great when need immediate physical treatment, however unless someone assesses you as needing further treatment elsewhere they usually send people home when not needing their services. Could you try to access support from your CPN today instead, ask for a call/visit/referral to crisis team if necessary. Obviously need to go to A and E if need to, just thought your MH Team may give you what you need in a more caring environment?