What's the point?

[Imsuchamess]

I'm suicidal I have urges to self harm and voices commanding I take amphetamine.

I have phoned the Samaritans.

I have tried snapping elastic bands on my skin and holding I've cubes against my skin.

I have phoned various drug helplines.

I have told my psychiatrist.

None of it changes a god damn thing I'm still the one who is sat here dealing with all this shit. Nothing has helped. If I go to crisis they will speak to me for a hour then send me home so I can sit there feeling exactly the same.

There is no point in my trying to get help no one can help me only God can and he has turned his back on me. Or someone with a magic wand to change me into a new person.

I can't do this no more.

Point take Insuchamess and apologies to Wolfie

Nananini I know you were defending me and I'm very grateful I know some would be upset by the words "I can't believe no one will help"

No worries Insuchamess you have enough to worry about..... I shouldn't have posted that to Wolfie I was just feeling a bit crap and I'm an atheist so I wouldn't want anyone praying for me, but we're all different aren't we. Do you have a CPN - I don't know what I'd do without mine but she's a bit special, and I'm very fortunate to have her. It's not that she can do anything - well she can because she can calm me down when the panic hits me, and if she is worried about me she makes sure I get seen by the psychiatrist, who is a really nice man.

I know everyone is not so fortunate. Hope you get some help from the Crisis team.

My old pdoc gave me two cpns but my new pdoc won't give me one.

I'm at crisis. People were looking at me and I had a breakdown in the reception and my husband restrained me. So they have moved me to a quiet area.

Where are you? Hope you get some help and they listen to you.

I'm at the hospital. I don't like it here. There are people here and they are looking at me. I want my bed back where I can hide. They wouldn't let me leave.

A normal hospital or a psych? Either is horrible and scary, I know. Just let yourself be looked after. Who's got your dc?

A normal hospital. My mum has my kids but she not looking after them right they should have gone to bed at 8 and she hasn't done it. I need to go home my kids need me.

Hi Imsuchamess.
It is the weekend so the kids going to bed a bit later than normal will probably be ok.

But it does sound like that you need to be looked after right now.

There are posters on mumsnet throughout the night if you post.

They have refused to change my meds and have let me go. I give up.

Upthread NanaNina asked why they wont give you the old meds.

Did the hospital tell you why they wont do that?

They keep saying my meds are perfectly good meds.

Personally I think it is time for you to see someone from a church. Do you know anyone like that at all?

I am catholic I go to church and see the priest.

I see no point in continuing to see mental health care professionals they don't listen and they don't help.

Did they offer you crisis team support for the weekend? Maybe they thought you'd be ok with your husband looking after you. Doesn't mean they don't care.

Do you tell the priest personal stuff that is happening?
[I am not a catholic so dont know how it works]
I think that you should.

No worried they did not.

I haven't told my priest anything worried he may exorcise me.

I am getting out of my spiritual depth now.

A priest, if he is genuine, will be able to do that if you wanted him too?