Can you tell us more about your situation HB so that we might be in a better position to offer support. You may well have a depressive illness and loss of some kind is usually the root cause of depression. It sounds like you have suffered 2 horrendous losses at the same time and it is small wonder that you are emotionally "wrecked"
Can you tell us more about your feelings. IF it is depression you are likely to be feeling:
Sad, empty, no interest in anything, no concentration, feeling worthless, even ashamed, suicidal thoughts, wanting to withdraw and hide away from people. You may have sleep problems and difficulty with your appetite. You might feel there is something that you should be able to do to stop yourself feeling this way, as that is common in depression.
Does any of this sound like you?
Depression can be very scary especially if you have never had this illness before and you will struggle to understand what is happening to you. Depression and anxiety usually go hand in hand, so you might be anxious too and sometimes it's difficult to tell one from the other.
Hope you can tell us a bit more about yourself. There is loads of support on here. It's only people who have suffered this illness who can understand it. GPs usually prescribe medication which can be very effective.