I can't cope any more

[HeartbrokenHateLife]

Been trying really hard to cope but a recent miscarriage and break down of a long term relationship has totally wrecked me.

I'm struggling to understand all my feelings & feel like I no longer know who I am

Feeling a bit better, managed to get some sleep. I've been sipping water through out the day but not masses

Mum has been fantastic - live with her so she's been there. Finding it hard as she's gone out tonight

Anyone here?!?!?

Need to talk

Hi. I'm here.
Not sure how much use I'll be though...

They tried to admit me to hospital today - soon discharged myself... I don't want to be there... I just want to did

Aren't there people there who could help you though?
I'm sorry, I don't know your back-story, but PLEASE don't think about dying. You WILL get through this.

Can you say what led to them wanting to admit you? Did something specific happen to prompt it?

You still there? Hope you're OK.

You may need to be in hospital for physical reasons, there may be a physical reason why you are ill if you say smell if food is making you sick. If you can eat and drink less need for you to be in hospital. If you deteriorate the medical staff can section you and detain you against your will, so it is worth co operating as a section can vary in length and even an appeal take significant time. A section does not mean talking treatment but compulsory detention on a general psychiatric ward usually ( shared rooms, assessment and see a dr once a week type thing).

You say your mum is with you. Can you talk to her and see if you can maybe plan something nice to look forward to - anything from something you want to watch on tv, an activity to do together?

Mum dragged me back as I can't even stand

They want me in to monitor me and make me eat

There may be a physical reason why you are struggling to eat so they will be checking everything out and that seems wise.

I'm hoping to see my GP tomorrow so will see what he suggests.

No sleep is now catching up with me and I barely have the energy to pick up my phone and text

Can you ask the hospital for one sleeping tablet?

I have sleeping pills but don't use them as don't feel in control

You could tell the dr that you have not slept but not taken a sleeping tablet and see what they suggest? hopefully you will get some sleep though as you are so tired now.

do you work, do you need a note from a dr to sign you off for a while? You can sign yourself off work for the first week if that helps.

Ive started a diary and written everything down about how I'm feeling/doing/eating/drinking/sleeping which I'm going to give to the GP so I can be more honest when I see him

I do work as a nanny as weirdly I'm happier at work so really don't want to be signed off. I seem to be managing at work

It is good you managing at work, I find work helps too - keeping busy, the routine. Do let your dr know you are managing at work if he wants to sign you off then, as long as you can physically can manage it and I am a bit concerned you said you were struggling to stand so hope you are gaining strength.

The days I've struggled I've phoned I. Sick or just said not feeling great so quiet day - luckily the children can fend for them selves. Bosses are fantastic

I want to kill myself tobight