Feeling mega crap here - I keep a score of my good days every month and I usually average about 80% good and the remainder mixed (getting better through the day or crap altogether) but January I only got 43% good days, my lowest score since I relapsed in 2010. Had 3 good days and thought I was going back to my usual pattern but the bloody headmonster is on the rampage again today. Had just got used to being "me" - forced myself out of bed to shower etc at 1.30.
Sorry folks I don't usually post on bad days cus I like to reach out to others. I shouldn't grumble, I am retired, family all grown up, have a nice warm house, no financial worries, and a loving DP when so many people are so much worse off. I also have a lovely CPN who I see by appointment once a month but I can phone her if I'm in a state, or e mail her. She has mentioned the possibility of adding lithium to my meds (I'm on imipramine and mirtazapine) but it's a bit "heavy end" drug and the list of side effects is scary, and it interacts (in a bad way) with imipramine, and it's also so hit and miss I find. She is going to talk to the psychiatrist about the possibility. I have an apt with him early March.
Also on the NHS I have a therapist (who is specifically for "older people" with mental health issues) and I saw her for about 20 sessions a year or so ago and she went on maternity leave but is now back so I am seeing her weekly. She saw me on a bad day (for the first time ever) last week and was really good - I was crying and shaking and feeling scared and saying "sorry" at every verse end which is what I do on bad days. She helped me to breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth and on the out breath she gently pushed my shoulders down as they are usually tense. It did help and I'm trying to do the breathing now.
SO I can hardly complain about lack of support can I. And still I am complaining. I know you'll all understand though. I haven't seen my lovely grand-daughter for a month - she's coming 14 but she doesn't know about my problems and I don't want her to, and I was so hoping to see her today. Enough of me.
DumDum are the CPNs introducing themselves to you prior to discharge. Glad you have a good feeling about them.
Lollipop sorry you're ill - also don't know about your mental health issues though could scroll back. Are you a dancer or an actress - just something I thought I'd read/
Snowy how are things - on a scale of 0 - 10 (0 being lowest) have the CPNs been today. Are the blood tests related to your meds. Really hope you can stay at home and I know you struggle but you can distract yourself a weeny bit I know. Keep on keeping on as that's all we can do really.
Hello CIQ and LEM and anyone else on the thread.