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health anxiety

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hopeliss · 14/10/2013 11:18

has anybody ever found a cure for health anxiety. it has plagued my life for 7 years and don't see an end to it. awful day today.
ps never been on mumsnet before. sorry if this is the wrong place to raise this.

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HowAboutNo · 29/08/2014 18:51

Hi all - today went well, the doctor I saw specialises in dermatology and all things moles, and he took a long look at it through his light thing and decided that there's nothing wrong with it right now, but that I need to go back in 3 months. Apparently quite a few of my moles are weird shapes!

He's put me on 20mg of citalopram and referred me for therapy. Feeling okay but kind of like jelly at the same time if you know what I mean? Bag of nerves. Can't be good for us can it!

Hope everyone is okay. This thread is so comforting Thanks

NickiFury · 29/08/2014 19:03

I know that "jelly" feeling, got it right now, I feel ok but it's fragile, like it could kick off at any moment iykwim? My dc are at their aunts house, so it's quiet and peaceful. I adore my dc but they're quite demanding, it's nice to just be still for a while. Got pain in neck still and that side of my chest and neck just feels wrong but my ECG was normal today so that's very reassuring. I was going to go out but I am not up for all the stimulus, lights, talking etc, so take away and box office movie I think.

It's actually lovely to have somewhere to talk about this Smile. I haven't googled since I posted earlier, yay me!

HowAboutNo · 29/08/2014 19:18

The not googling is so hard isn't it? Ugh it's like an addiction.

I don't blame you for not wanting to go out, it's so demanding sometimes and just to function is a job in itself

ballofworry · 29/08/2014 20:03

yay!! Howabout Grin glad it went well , and good you have such a understanding doctor who helped you ..
i have same ADs to try to but just got to pluck up the courage to take them ..

hopefully you will sleep well tonight x
Nicki - movie and take away sounds like the perfect evening , and with DC away for the night give you time for you and can try to relax [smile ]

hope everyone els is ok to tonight x

awfulomission · 29/08/2014 20:13

I have problems with a racing, pounding heart in the night and tension over my left shoulder and ribcage. I've had to have an ECG and am going on to a 24 hour ECG and Electrocardiogram.

I go to sleep fine but then wake up after a dream, heart going like the clappers. So I know what you might be going through Nicki .

HowAboutNo · 29/08/2014 20:14

Thanks ball! How are you feeling?
I know, I've been worried about taking them but I can't go on like this so I'll try anything. The side effects are long though!

HowAboutNo · 29/08/2014 20:16

nicki and awful that sounds terrible, is it down to the anxiety? Surely if there was something really wrong they would have found it? I'm really sorry you're posting here too, it's shitty isn't it.

ballofworry · 29/08/2014 20:27

its just awful isnt it , good that we can post on here let it all out and support one another ...

HowAboutNo · 29/08/2014 21:03

One worry I've had for a few weeks is my scarring from giving birth. I had a tear on my (sorry if TMI!) vaginal wall that took an age to heal and when I've looked, there's now a white patch of skin, like a scar? But I can't find any mention of anyone else having this online. It's not raised of anything. Gah! One thing after another.

HowAboutNo · 30/08/2014 07:37

My last post sounds ridiculous reading it back, I'll literally find anything to worry about. The citalopram has made me feel quite sick and strange, but I'm just focussing on two weeks' time when hopefully it will be better. Hope everyone is okay!

awfulomission · 30/08/2014 08:05

No, not tmi. There can be all sorts of vaginal irregularities after birth. The whiteness could be thrush?

What are we all doing today? I'm swimming with the DCs this morning and getting paint testers this pm. My dm is coming over and it's her birthday so we are having a small party for her tomorrow. I'm hosting (which I'm crap at)! Sil is lovely and a bit of a superwoman. She's noticed I'm not drinking alcohol or coffee (palps) and keeps asking questions. I'm not ready to share with her.

ballofworry · 30/08/2014 08:30

morning all ,

Howabout , i had a bad tare and had stitches with both my DC , im sure its quite normal , if you get worried further maybe pop to the nurse get her to have a quick look , but in my experience everything looks different down there after giving birth Grin i tend not to look these days lol ..

awfulomi , sounds like a nice weekend coming up , i to don't drink alcohol or coffee for same reasons , i feel so bad just after a latte and although i like the feeling of relaxation after a glass of wine , i pay for it later at bed time as get pulps or next day feel so tired and just rubbish and thats just with 1 glass !!! and it can effect my mood the next day i can feel tearful and depressed ... so i say clear form it these days .

Im trying to keep focus and busy today , we move in 2 weeks time so best start packing , my DS broke his wrist badly last week on his MX bike so been a very stressful emotional time , but in a way i learnt alot about myself and how i kept strong for him , with that focus just on him i totally forgot all my health anxiety issues and he was my top priority , i realised how powerful the mind is in situations like that , keeping busy is def a good thing , i took my mind to another place and didn't have chance to think about myself and all my destructive thinking ...
long may it last !!! x

hope everyone els is ok to ?

HowAboutNo · 30/08/2014 12:18

Thanks ladies. I've now convinced myself this cluster of moles on my back are itching and tingling. From one thing to the next. Booked a derm appointment on Tuesday. Don't even know if the feeling is imagined or real anymore!

ballofworry · 30/08/2014 14:20

I know its really hard , iv been there like you before honestly , i get mine checked every 6 months and each time i get myself in knots , try and focus on all the positive the doctor told you yesterday , he seemed to know his stuff from what you said as he specialises in moles /skin , so thats a really good thing . x

HowAboutNo · 30/08/2014 15:44

I know Ball, the anxiety is just relentless. So fed up of it

lozza1974 · 30/08/2014 17:56

Hey everyone. It's a bad day today Sad. I found a lump in my back last week, and it's been causing my anxiety to go through the roof. I've been trying to tell myself that it would have shown up on a recent xray if it was anything nasty, but today I stupidly looked on Google, and I'm now convinced I have a soft tissue sarcoma, which wouldn't show on an xray. I feel sick. I don't know what to do with myself. I know I'll be on the phone to the doctors first thing on Monday morning. I've read that there are no symptoms for soft tissue sarcomas until the lump is big enough to feel, by which point a cure is unlikely. I'm going out of my mind.

ballofworry · 30/08/2014 19:46

how is everyone tonight ?
lozza welcome and hope your feeling a little calmer now ...

lozza1974 · 30/08/2014 20:05

Hey ballofworry, and thanks for the welcome. Not sure I'm calm - terrified is more like it! I just seem to be going from one type of cancer to another recently. I'm at my wit's end and just can't see a way out of this. I've started taking Kalms, but they can take up to 6 weeks to start working. I know there's no magic wand, but I just want someone to take this away. I dread going to bed at night, because I know I'll have to go through it all again when I wake up. I'm not in a great place right now - feeling very alone. Sorry for the downer of a post. I hope everyone else is having a better day.

HowAboutNo · 30/08/2014 20:47

lozza - I know exactly how you feel, literally to a T. It's so frightening you feel like you can just about function and do the bare minimum but it's all you can think about. I am exactly the same - I've gone through every cancer and now I'm at skin cancer. I've found a dark mole I didn't get the doc to look at the other day so will be ringing first thing Monday morning.

You are not alone, I am going through the same. Keep posting if it helps x

ballofworry · 31/08/2014 09:02

Hows everyone today..hope a little better x

HowAboutNo · 31/08/2014 11:44

Hi ball... Still the same but just trying to keep occupied! How are you

ballofworry · 31/08/2014 11:53

try to keep busy and maybe get out of the house if you can will help take your mind off things x

im ok keeping busy myself today packing

lozza1974 · 31/08/2014 12:29

No different for me. Spent most of this morning in bed thinking how I'll tell the kids, what I'll have to leave them, how it will be for them when I'm gone, etc. I'm tying myself in knots, making myself feel so sick with dread. I just can't un-convince myself that I have an incurable cancer and I'm not going to be around much longer Sad

ballofworry · 31/08/2014 12:43

sorry your still feeling so anxious x

HowAboutNo · 31/08/2014 14:28

Lozza it's totally understandable, it's terrifying to find something like that and not know what it is. Try to picture a good outcome from your appointment tomorrow, and just focus on it. It's really hard but do what you can. I have the same thoughts and they are heartbreaking. Have you told anyone in RL how you feel?