Shall We Have A Panic Attack Support Thread?

[Ulysees]

I've just started with them again as going through loads and loads of stress. I didn't realise how stressed I am but it's coming to the surface. GP has put me on Citalopram again..starting on 10mg and going up to 20mg.

I know a lot of people do suffer too and thought it may be good to help each other?

I felt really proud tonight as I went to pick the boys up from school and started with one. It was the worst one I've ever had The dr's surgery is over the road from the school and I was ready to fly over there. I rang some mates who picked up ds2 for me and were ready to get Ds1 as well. Then I thought, no it's a panic attack...it will go. So I went in the supermarket and got myself pulled round. Managed to go and meet mates and get the boys and brought them home

You really feel as if you're dying when they're bad I hope the ads work soon as it's awful. I was on SJW but feel I need something more than that.

Mine is mostly breathlessness, chest tightening and flushing/going hot.

Although I have been known to faint.

I don't dare drive now. Mine started a few years back and were worse when I drove.

Q I can imagine you'd find it hard to pay. There should be more available for us. Is there a support group in your area?

Expat, sinusitus can set me off too? Strange that isn't it? Lots of things can do it though for different people.

Yes it makes sense Q. You'd never know I was having one sometimes. It's more a feeling of disappearing, like I'm sinking away?? Very weird.

theres nothing... HV spent a week enquiring. I think ill stick to the diazepam and when im not BFing I can maybe take something more.

I get that... only outwards sign is I go quiet. But inside everything churning like mad... its scary because you think if that energy gets out... youll go mad?

That's a shame Q. Do you go on any sites online?

I'm going now to tackle the house. It's amazing what a tip it looks after spending 2 weeks in a spotless cabin My bedroom is awful!

take care all and speak soon xx

Only my mum and a couple of close friends know about mine. ILs dont know as they have the 'jibbering wreck' images. Ive heard them assuming lots of things when discussing other people they know or after they have seen or read something. It really does pee me off and sometimes I want to just blurt out 'Well, actually....' but I dont think DH would thank me for it. It really does put the pressure on to appear 'normal' on some days, but then again I wonder if sometimes it does help, you know, rather than just sitting moping around because 'they know so its alright' kind of thing.

My ex bf also knows. But he's 5,000 miles away and only a friend. He suffers from bipolar disorder and is a surgeon so I felt comfortable telling him about my PND and PAs.

Ulysees - just MN!

I'm still here

MMH, I know what you mean about people's assumptions. I get very annoyed when people say things like....oh she's a mad b...h etc.. when the person is just ill. I'm so gobby though I tend to tell them. That's what people mean when they say I'm not the type. I'm very confident.

Right, I'm off. Kick me up the arxx if I'm still on here in 5 mins

yeah. My depression has lifted since having DS because... I think because im not sitting, wallowing anymore. When my panic atacks started... I let it all out, I know how AWFUL it is, so it goes inwards now. They are better than before, but seem more worrysome (is that a word?) because I dont want it to effect my ability as a mother.

FOTM, do you kinda mean... it was better when you did cry alot and you think keeping it in makes you more anxious?

I know, I should be doing allsorts today as MIL has DS, but Im sat on me arse MNing . Right, Im off.

MMH, Ulysees... my "fil" called me pyschotic.

Quootiepie, I do the worrying about being a good mother etc.. I think thats what making it more difficult for me at the moment because its the first time Ive suffered since I had DS. I surpringly (and luckily) escaped any PND and thought Id seen the back of it. Now Im having to face the fact that I havent and will most probably never will .

at your FIL.

Yes,, DS can often be what shakes me out of a 'moment'.

My panic/anxiety always seems to be a day or two after being stressed thinking about it...

I skipped PND and even the day 3/4 baby blues actually odd that

DS shakes me out of it sometimes too... but sometimes (when I now have to take the diazepam) nothing will.

Ulysees - I have told my DP and my Mum about mine but there's really not they can say except reassure me everything will be ok.

I have been on ad's for most my life but have stopped taking them this last year and a half and have been coping ok.

I feel a bit sill having these pa's i never even thought about the afterwards of having ds i just knew i would go into labour have a baby then look after him, but this time i have so many concerns.

I had a bad reaction to gas and air last time.
I had a bad bad tear last time.
I may not be allowed an epidural this time and i would NOT have coped last time without one.

I think i will cope ok with another one as i have plenty of support and a very hands on dp, but its still a worry.

Just silly things like that and yet it effects my sleep so badly and i get so scared and well panicked!