My head hurts so much from trying to think straight.
My youngest 2 children are going to their dads tomorrow til monday and my oldest will probably be staying at his girlfriends all weekend so i have the time and i have the means I'm just scared that I wont have the courage and that I will be left feeling worse.
I just want it to stop, all of it but it wont.
I'm scared and I'm tired, tired of breathing, of living, of just being here on this planet.
I cant get the flashbacks to stop, they wont go away.
I'm just done with it all