Talk to me about SSRI medication, please

[Cairngorms]

I've had phases of depression for many years, but not ever taken medication. Over the past year, I've had major anxiety too associated with some very major life changes we are dealing with.

In the summer, I so desperate that I was prescribed an SSRI which I took. The side effects when I started were horrible, really horrible, my husband disapproved in general, and longer term it reduced my desire to have sex, which caused issues with my husband. I am not brilliant about remembering to take it, and during the autumn something came up where DH disagreed with me doing something because I was on medication, so I stopped taking it altogether.

I am now really unstable again - anxious, depressed, unhappy. I would like to try taking the SSRI again, BUT

• I am worried about the short-term side effects;
  
• I am worried about reduced libido again;
  
• I am worried about facing the GP who told me NOT to stop taking it.
  

How do I face the GP, face the DH's disapproval, find an SSRI with reduced starting side effects and also without the reduced libido effect?

Please help! I am finding this overwhelmingly hard.

[NanaNina]

Last minute post here cairns (sounds moe friendly thanCG) so glad that you are feeling more optimistic. It's awful when you feel crap in the morning and the day is looming over you isn't it. Mornings are always worse for me and on bad days I quite often improve as the day goes by. Glad you're eating too.
A cautious Happy Easter to you and just think this time next year you will be looking back and thinking how you are back to your old self ............well you will be better before then but you know what I mean.
BUT before I go - yet another reminder - Take Meds every day!!!

[Queenofknickers]

Hello just popping in to ask how you're doing and to offer to be bossy about meds if you need me to!
Big hugs x

[Cairngorms]

Hi - I'm doing OK-ish ... very, very tired. We've gone away for a few days holiday, and it's nice to be away. Though no time to write much.
I'm sticking with the meds, though I do feel very ambiguous about them.

[Queenofknickers]

Glad you still taking the meds - it is the right thing to do and very soon you will be feeling better. Hope you're having a nice break - don't forget to be taking care of yourself though. Big hugs

[Cairngorms]

Just calling back in to say I'm still around occasionally, feeling a lot better in my head but still overwhelmed / swamped by life circumstances. Not sure how to make the life-situation better.

Thank you all for the support and hand-holding.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

Glad to hear your head feels better Cairngorms. I would say tackle only one thing at a time - we are so desperate to be free in one bound but it doesn't work like that.

Sounds like your days away did you good :)

[Cairngorms]

Argh!
I hate regrets. Rumination and pain is eating me up. I don't know how to get away from it. So very sad.