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Help i feel so low................

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SomethingAboutMary · 03/05/2006 15:44

I am feeling so so low, i am usually a full of life mum of 2, usually have all the time in the world for my kids, my house is always tidy,washing always done & dinner always on the table BUT since i was about 6 months pregnant with dd i feel totally shit.

I don't want to get out of bed, i dont want to leave the house, everything is just hard work, i can not even be bothered to get up & take ds to nursery and that is just sooooooo unlike me my kids always come first & i have always wanted the best for them, i just feel lifeless & i feel like it is getting worse & worse.

I HATE being like this i feel so crap i have no confidence at all i dont want to even leave my house, even doing the shopping is only if i really really have too.

I woke this morning & just cried & cried after dp had left for work, i felt sad inside. The weird thing is when someone says to me what is wrong i don't have an answer i honestly don't know why i am like this, it just happens i just wake up & am down i know from the minute i wake up if it will be a good day or bad day Sad

I have told my health visitor & been to the doctors they are very nice & see me every week, i am on anti-depressants (which was a last resort for me) so just shows how down i must be, but they dont seem to be working, i am going back to see the doctor on friday but i just want to curl up in a ball in my bed & never come out again.

Someone help me this was not what my life was ment to be Sad

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Notquitesotiredmum · 05/05/2006 10:27

Hi SAM

So glad that you had a good day. Yes, I think it is quite common to find that it comes and goes. When you have a bad day, hang onto the fact that there will be good ones (I found that my bad days come without fail if I am overtired.)

NASW - I'm good at the moment, I think. I had picked up on one or two threads that things are difficult for you at the moment. Sending you loads of cybersupport. (If I remember rightly you had to use emergency contraception a while back. Do hope that all went well there - I haven't seen an update anywhere. However, my blackest time ever came after I had to take the morning after pill ages ago. I read somewhere long after that it is known to bring on depression, and, if I remember rightly, that eating lots of red meat, ripe bananas or avocados can redress the hormonal imbalance it induces.) Thinking of you.

Sorry to hijack your thread SAM!

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SomethingAboutMary · 05/05/2006 10:34

Hi everyone, not wuite sure how i am feeling today, have woken up feeling ok so think it should be a good day, but it is my very very close friends dad's funeral today so i think this is why i am feeling rather low, she has been texting me this morning & i am just finding it quite hard, its bringing back all the memorys of when i lost my own father Sad

Dp has been extra nice to me so thats a good thing he is really trying to help me, he phoned me this morning to see how i felt when i woke up bless him Smile

I will come back later & let you know tonight how my day has been as i am feeling quite confused about my emotions.

By the way hijack away honestly its fine Smile

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blueteddy · 05/05/2006 12:40

Sorry to hear about your friends Dad.Sad It is very understandable that you will be feeling very low today, especially as it is bringing back sad memories of your own fathers death.
I am pleased to hear that you have such a supportive partner - that must help a lot.
Take care.xx

naswm · 05/05/2006 18:56

SAM - how was today?? Do hope you can check in and let us all know.

NASTM - thanks for remembering me. I had almost forgotten about the emergency contraception episode a couple of months back amidst all the other emotional turmoil this year. I was depressed before then (have been for a v long while) and still am now (think I alwasy will be), but I dont think the MAP necessarily made it any worse. I am not brilliant right now. This has been a crap year and the future looks bleak too. I am trying all I can to get myself through it. [I have just made a MN banana loaf cake though so there is something to look forward to tonight at least :)]

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SomethingAboutMary · 05/05/2006 19:19

Well today has not been to bad, i did not go to the funeral i just could not face it, i explained to my friend & she was absolutly fine my sister went & has texted & said everything is ok think they are now celebrating his life having a few drinks at the pub.

I have felt mixed emotions today i have felt terribly guilty about not going but it is something i feel i had to turn down only due to the way i am feeling at thie time & it brings back all the memories of my own fathers funeral which was one of the most unforgettable days of my life. I went to my grandads funeral a yr after my dad & it really hit me bad so i just felt i did not want to go down that road again but i do feel guilty Sad

I did sit in the garden when it was happening & my thoughts were with them all.

Apart from the meotions from this sad time i have actually felt good again today i am hoping i am on a roll, i have been taken 1 day at a time, i have also notcied that today has been ver well behaved so maybe my mood is effecting his bahviourer.

Thanks for listening to me rant on, it does make me feel better being able to sit here & type my feelings Smile

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UKmum4 · 06/05/2006 00:45

Glad that despite what was obviously a really hard day things are ok. Is dp around at the weekend? in any case hope you get a good one... will be checking back to see if you're ok - lets us know if oyu are on your own at the weekend.

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SomethingAboutMary · 06/05/2006 08:26

Hi UKmum4 Dp is here this weekend not all weekend because he is out golfing on sunday (boooring) but he is here today even know he is still in la la land Smile

I am feeling a bit low today but am trying to fight it the sun is shining so going to make the most of it, what are you doing today anything nice? how are you feeling?

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naswm · 06/05/2006 09:28

Hi SAMary. Glad your DP is around for some of the weekend. Sorry you are feeling a bit low. Get out in the sun if you can. It WILL help a bit. Stay in touch. naswm x

PS I made a banana cake last night and it is incredible how it lifted my spirits. Maybe you can do the same today? It was really easy. (Jambuttie's recipe on MN)

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SomethingAboutMary · 06/05/2006 13:34

Oh wow so glad you said that i wanted a recipe for this ds is mad about bananas, thanks am off to try & find the recipe as we are off shopping to sainsburys later, will probably make it tonight or tomorrow.

Feeling abit better actually will report back, enjoy your cake sounds luuuurvly xx

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naswm · 06/05/2006 23:55

Did you make it MAry>?

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SomethingAboutMary · 07/05/2006 07:12

Hi no we did not get round to making it, ds fell asleep when we got back from sainsburys & i wanted to make it with him.

We are going to make it today as daddy has gone golfing so gives us something to do will let you know how we get it, hope it turns out ok i am not the best cook in the world, but it seems pretty simple Smile

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UKmum4 · 07/05/2006 14:03

hope it tastes good - my ds2 loves baking - hes never too bothered if the results arent good he just loves to cook. Sounds like the weekend is going ok. Keep busy while dp is out maybe you can get a bit of time for yourself when he gets home - a relaxing bath or something.

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SomethingAboutMary · 07/05/2006 14:07

Hi UkMum4 well the cake is in the oven so will let you know how we get on, the weekend has actually been going very well, i am surprized as i ran out of my AD on friday so have not had any since then as i could not get a docs appoint but everything seems to be good.

Dp is home now he only went for a few hours, i will be having a lovely relaxing bath tonight.

So far so good though i think it helps that the sun is shining & the kids are being well behaved...

How are you? hows your weekend been?

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UKmum4 · 07/05/2006 15:00

the weekend is good so far - we went for a long family walk yesterday am and I did gardening in the afternoon - it wes very warm hereSmile

planning to continue the garden today - dh is at the diy store at the moment - he has lots of work to do later but thats fine.

naswm · 07/05/2006 16:20

Hi you two. pleasd you are both having a good weekend. Mary - try to collect those ADs tomorrow. you dont want to go too long without them. Stay in touch naswm x

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SomethingAboutMary · 07/05/2006 22:10

Glad everything is ok & you are feeling ok too, Well we made the cake it came out fine & is delisious, so i was very happy about that. Ds was very proud he kept going up to the oven to watch it rise bless him.

I know what your saying about the ad's i did try i had a row with the receptionist because she said there were no appoointments & i said well i am running out of ads she then said well you may have to call tomorrow for emergency appoin so i said ok then she said to me "well actually its not an emergency is it" cheeky cow.

I do need to get it sorted so will be calling again in the morning. Ds has his nursery pics at 9am they have a photographer so looking forward to that, will see what tmorrow brings, will let you know i am starting to feel abit edgy tonight not sure why though...

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UKmum4 · 07/05/2006 23:19

sam you sound really on the ball - i generally have no idea the photos are taking place and the children turn up dressed really badly!!

call gp early so you can get your ads tomorrow.

will check in sometime... glad the banana cake was a success

naswm · 08/05/2006 11:26

SAM - have you been to the docs? If you cant get an appointment, you should be able to just colect a prescription. Say that to the receptionist if she is horrible again.

Stay in touch. x

UKmum4 · 08/05/2006 19:18

hi sam you haven't posted today - hoping your ok

calsworld · 08/05/2006 19:58

Grrrrr to Dr's receptionists - the grumpiest people I've ever met!!

(Sorry if any of you are receptionists and not grumpy!)

blueteddy · 08/05/2006 20:00

Hope you are okay, SAM.

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SomethingAboutMary · 09/05/2006 06:56

Hi all sorry i did not post yesterday, i did pop on mn & i rememeber thinking i must update this thread.

I started to get quite irratable & anxious last night & i have woken this morning & i am not feeling to good Sad I don;t feel as bad as i did when i started this thread that was just one of the worst days ever, but i am feeling down today, i was sort of expecting it at some point because i have had a run of good days which is fab, my af is also due so maybe this is why i am starting to feel down, i do get emotional before hand & moody.

I tried to phone the docs yesterday & no one picked up the phone i then totally forgot about it, so still no pills, i am going to phone today & ask for a prescription like you mentioned as this is just getting silly & its not helping that my memory is quite bad too Blush

I will pop back later after ds is at nursery as dd is crying for her feed.

Take care all & thanks for asking after me Smile x

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SomethingAboutMary · 09/05/2006 17:40

Oh god feeling really stressed sorry need to let of some steam, have shouted at ds because i just can not take anymore................. Sad

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blueteddy · 09/05/2006 17:43

Oh, SAM, sorry to hear you are feeling so stressed. I used to shout at DS1 a lot when I had PND & then feel terrible. Infact I still have days where I am so stressed that I lose it, now.
Is your DH around, or someone who could maybe take the kids off your hands for a while?

naswm · 09/05/2006 18:11

just seen you post SAM. I'm here for a bit if you want to talk.

naswm x