Sertraline and any other AD's Support Thread Part 2

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Just a continuation from the original thread, which is due to finish soon. Anyone and everyone needing some kind words, and hand-holding, are more than welcome .

im lurking....

not posted for a few days. but im around....you ok up?

I'm here although I should be off to bed soon.

How's everyone?

Just having a moment. Well an hour. Or two..

i have several moments a day i think. you ok up?

Just exhausted. Too many things in my head to fight.

I don't explain things too well, I'm not sure what to say, not sure what I thought I would achieve by coming on here because I can't even put it into words.

dont worry - sometimes just saying anything is enough - most people on this thread will understand.

are you able to sleep or do you have a busy head?

Thankyou. My heads busy. I have some sleeping tablets I may need to use.

I've never really been lonely, in the sense that I need someone here, but right now I feel very alone.
It's so hard to get out of this frame of mind because I'm too far into it of that makes sense

makes perfect sense - if your head is very busy then take a sleeping tablet - i have some for emergency use.

unless you want to empty your head out on this page.....i find mn very useful for just that purpose!

I can't seem to get things right. I can't just be happy without it all crashing down around me. I get so stressed. I shout. I cry. I get irritated. I shout at the kids, if I'm angry/upset/irritable I take it out on them. I feel guilty. I'm selfish. I don't cope. I have horrible thoughts. I make people miserable. I have an awful temper.

And I have toothache

I think I'll take a sleeping pill.

it wont be as bad as you think up truly.

yesterday DS really annoyed my generally placid DH, DS is 21 and has some special needs but was going back to uni....DH shouted at DS and DS ended up running away and crying.

when i went to talk to DS he said - and i quote....

"i know dad doesnt ever get angry so when he does it scares me, where as with you i know you are angry all the time"

great testimony for me then. his staunchest advocate for the past 21 years and all he can say of me is that im angry all the time so it doesnt ever bother him....

i am obviously bloody awful to live with. and i dont have tooth ache.
take that sleeping pill - i find depression exacerbates negative emotions to the point where its all we see - others probably dont register our negatives. we focus on those.
your kids will love you no matter what. grumpy or not. toothache or not.
tomorrow is another day.

DS by the way loves me.....grumpy old me. he phones every day.

Vicar, that will be exactly how my dd's see me...that made me laugh!

You're right, tomorrow is another day. By the time dd's are back from their dads I'll be ok.
I'm going to take a sleeping pill, my heads not shutting off.

Thankyou..

your welcome

get some shut eye - things will be different tomorrow. gnite.

uptothestars I hope you have managed to get some sleep.

vicar I think all children find it hard to properly appreciate their mums! You know you are doing a great job.

I have had a weird day. I cut my ankle and got some stitches. It was a bit of a trauma and it should scare me, but nothing does any more. I just feel nothing about it. I am beyond feeling any regret or fear or anger. The nurses at the minor injuries (who very depressingly know me well, although it makes it easier because I don't have to explain) were lovely and said how well I looked, and how well I cope with everything. But I am not coping. Because I am destroying myself. I feel so very low. And I do everything you know. I get up, I wash, I do my hair and make-up, I leave the house, I cook, I clean, I see friends, I see family, I distract myself, I cry, I don't cry, I don't sit and dwell, I talk to my husband, I go to every appointment, I take the medication, and I still feel like shit. And I don't know what to do any more.

Hi all,
I stumbled across your discussion when i was trying to find more info about sertraline. This is the first time that I have experienced depression and have been taking 50mg daily for about 4 weeks now. After the first few days the only side effects I have are dry mouth, lack of appetite and not sleeping or sleeping at the wrong times. I take my med in the morning, by 1-2pm I am ready for a sleep. I end up crashing out then cant sleep later and end up staying up till 1 or 2pm. Because of the discussions I am going to try taking my meds later in the day to see if that can help get me back into a better sleep pattern.

Hello again Ladies. Sorry I haven't been on here for a day or 2, I've been quite busy and when I have had the time, I've been so shattered I went to bed.

Welcome to the thread Knitting, you're more than welcome to join in when ever you want.

Anotherthing Knitting is that I was like yourself. I needed to find the best time to take the AD and I found that taking it at teatime and going to bed around 7-8pm made sure I didn't have any of the grogginess the next day. It was trial and error with them but I got there in the end.

Am away for a snooze as I am so knackered that I'm surprised I can type. Started typing my response at 1pm, so I am getting rather tired.

Will be back on later.

fluffy - do you feel bad all the time or is it something that comes and goes? is the self harm making you feel worse after you do it? (i would imagine its a bit like the cycle of binge eating and purging - makes you feel better for a short while and then the guilt sets in ??) i hope you have a better day today.

im annoyed with myself today. i had really thought i might get up and attempt a bit of exercise today - and i slept in so late that i then just couldnt get up at all...so i levered myself out of bed at a shameful 2pm....im sat here feeling rubbish for it now.

knitting we are at the same stage with the sertraline - almost 5 weeks on it for me. gp just upped my dose to 100mg and now im all over the place with it again.

I got some sleep. I've kept myself busy today. House is spotless and I feel much better for it.
Thanks for your help last night vicar.
Hope everyone is ok

your very welcome up sometimes just pondering on here and having some one answer is enough.

after a bumpy and very late start i am bathed, hair washed and dried, face washed and clean ironed pjs on, also tidied bathroom and DH did bedroom so feeling better for a tidy home again. (while it lasts)

Bad day here! I turned into "Shouty mum" cause the DC were being very annoying. Decided we would go out for a walk cause I thought that would tire them out a bit. it worked for a while but then they started again after the walk so I went off to bed as I couldn't take any more . Feel like crap as I'm often leaving it to DH to look after them cause I'm just not good right now.

Can't wait till Monday when they are back in school.
I Hate myself!

Blackcat....you show me a mum who hasn't wished her children to be back at school or counted down the hours, minutes and seconds til bedtime.

Dd isn't back til Tuesday You have one whole day on me!

Hi knitting nice to see you here :)

vicar I am pleased you felt able to get up etc.

packitin I hope you managed to get some sleep!

vicar - I am actually the world's crappest self harmer. I feel no relief when I do it and it doesn't really make me feel better. Hmm. You would think I would learn! I suppose in some ways I feel relief because the cut is out of my head and I don't have all the worry and anxiety about it. But in terms of emotional relief - fuck all. I am always looking for more - hence the silly things I do. I am finding it harder and harder to be safe when I am alone.

I have had an arse with my meds today, crossed wires between the psych at the CMHT and my GP meant my prescription was post-dated to the middle of January and so the pharmacist couldn't fill it. Obv only found this out at 6pm on Saturday when I have no tablets left! Anyway, two phone calls later I was able to pick up a two day prescription from the OOH GP at the A&E. I was quite impressed at how easy it was to sort out actually. Need to sort out a proper prescription on Monday.

Long story short I started 50mg of sertraline today! I have been having mad dreams on 25mg so I know it is in my system.

I had a really bad day yesterday. It started out ok, had every intention of doing all sorts. Tidied the kitchen, tidied and hoovered around the living room. Sat down with a coffee then it all went to pot. The rest of the day I sat doing nothing but watching crap films on TV. Last night I had a couple of really weird dreams, first dreams I have had in weeks. I am hoping today is a bit better. I hate feeling like this

Back again ladies. Was getting some coursework done. Fluffy I managed to get about an hour's kip. I don't know what is wrong with me today. Yesterday I started feeling flu-like, but there was no other symptoms apart from very sore muscles and a headache. I honestly felt like a lead balloon with moveable parts and a busted head. I'm feeling like a complete bag of crap and I've my first day back to college tomorrow. Just what I need.

Anyway, how are all you good ladies today? I hope you're all hanging in there .

Hello everyone

I hope you don't mind me jumping in.

I ran out of duloxetine (60mg) a few days ago. Today I've had some horrible side effects - a feeling of vertigo / head jerk plus weepiness. I've had insomnia with absolutely bonkers dreams - really intense, detailed and repetitive.

I'd like to come off them but I've read some crappy things about withdrawals. Has anyone else been through this? I think I'm going to try and see my GP tomorrow morning.