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Anxiety and panic attacks

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Charleebird · 10/10/2012 16:38

Does anyone else suffer with this "odd" feeling. Constant fear that somethings going to happen? I have constant butterflies, cry all the time, i cant concentrate i feel really odd and its been happening since last tuesday. I was on propranalol and fluoxetine but my doc told me to come off the fluoxetine as i could be having side effects (i have been on them for about 3 years)

I am constantly thinking maybe i have some illness even thou i have seen many doctors who have all told me its anxiety. Why have i suddenly gone like this? I feel so alone. I feel nervous and dizzy. Not hungry anymore and just cant relax. I have been pescribed another anti depressant and tonight i will start taking them.

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Cantdoright · 10/10/2012 16:43

I have been through all of this and still have bad days, I had intensive cbt with anti depressants for a year and haves aged to come through the other side, I would say I am 85% better than I was but they were very dark times for me am just on my phone but will be back in a while Smile

Charleebird · 10/10/2012 16:47

I just constantly feel scared that im going to loose everyone or i will go to sleep and wake up and forget who i am and who my kids or husband is. I no that wont happen but its almost a fear if you like. I hate being alone aswell. This truely sucks :'-( xxx

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Cantdoright · 10/10/2012 16:54

Mine started after I had dd1 had a massive panic attack and thought I was going to die, had everything I wanted with dp and dd1 was so happy felt something had to go wrong and I would lose them, after that I believe I suffered health anxiety and was constantly at the gp convinced I would get a terminal illness or googling any symptoms I had, always ending up with google diagnosing me with cancer. Things really started getting better for me when I had dd2 I guess I was so busy I didn't have time to sit worrying or I would challenge myself ie I have asthma and always convinced myself I couldn't breath (but it was anxiety) so I would go for a run etc to prove to myself it wasn't my asthma.
Do you have an understanding gp?

Cantdoright · 10/10/2012 16:56

I also felt alone and got fed up of worrying about everything, I think you should ask to be referred to a counsellor or psychologist for CBT it really helped me

Charleebird · 10/10/2012 16:59

Yes CBT was mentioned when i saw my gp. However he also said what im experiencing could be caused by my fluoxetine so i have to come off them and try these new ones. I need to take more propranalol aswell. I feel like im going insane lol

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cappucinogirl4 · 10/10/2012 17:05

Charlee I feel like this alot since I had the DC.You are not alone! I am on the NHS waiting list for cbt counselling and I also take mirtazapine and risperdal which does help.
It's a horrendous feeling isn't it? Hang on in there.It WILL get better.I think you need to discuss your meds with your GP as your current ones are obviously not working There are lots to try.Also get gp to refer you for counselling - although in my area it is a long wait.I have had telephone support whilst I'm waiting for the cbt though.
Thinking of you

Charleebird · 10/10/2012 17:15

Thanks alot :-) i saw my gp today who has taken me off fluoxetine and put me on something else (cant remember the word) lol but i am hoping they work for me and i stop having these constant feelings of dread and being scared. Its horrible. I really want to try councelling, i hope it works for both of us :-)

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SunAtLast · 10/10/2012 17:21

Yes. Took years to sort myself out but i am ok now. I lost the drugs and instead got counselling and therapy through the national phobics society. Google them I think they've changed name now.

Good luck

Cantdoright · 10/10/2012 19:11

I found the website no more panic very helpful too

Mylittlepuds · 11/10/2012 21:14

Yes I feel like this every day. I'm okay as soon as DH home. I feel 'weird' and think I'm losing it. Feel scared I'm going to collapse and die. Sounds so silly writing it down but it's horrendous to live with. Mine started after I had DS 18 months ago. I'm pg again now and it's still bad. Have those who've had CBT improved? I've had counselling but it didn't help.

Haemadoots · 11/10/2012 21:44

I felt an improvement with CBT took a lot of sessions though

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TheDogsRolex · 15/10/2012 21:25

I suffer with anxiety too charlee, it rules my life tbh. I'm still to find a med that works ten years on. Prozac was the only one that really calmed me down but it gave me so many stomach problems I couldn't stay on it.

It's shit, the gps cant seem to find anything else to work for me.

Bunnygotwhacked · 16/10/2012 09:16

I am having a spate of anxiety attacks at the moment have had more than i can count over this past fortnight. It kicks off mainly whenever i need to go out alone it is making school pick up a big issue. I missed a session from a course im on this week as i had 4 separate attacks on the last one im sat here now needing to go shopping and ds needs some shoes we found the old ones last night the soles in pieces poor boy must of had wet feet all week yet i am dreading going out and angry with myself for being such a numpty. Doc prescribed beta blockers they seem to be stopping the heart racing etc but not the anxiety which feels weird. I think they are making me wheezy and lightheaded but not so i can't live with it
sorry i needed to get that out

Mylittlepuds · 19/10/2012 18:27

Cantdoright - did you have anxiety through pregnancy with DD2?

lisa2104 · 21/10/2012 17:22

I have started to suffer with anxiety at 19 weeks. Well I've had anxiety for a while but since I got pregnant its got worse. The week before I found out I went out drinking with work and was quite drunk and had a heated conversation with my boss. Next day I thought I might have said something flirty or angry to him but over the months it has turned into an obsession that I could have had sex with him even though we were in a club/bar. And if I didn't do anything with him maybe the taxi driver had his wicked way with me because I don't fully remember the journey home. Then I started to think one of them is the father of my child although I have been assured I was already pregnant but the thoughts have got worse and worse. I have been frightened to death that I have destroyed my partners relationship with our unborn child and have even thought of abortion although not for long and disgusted by that as this child is long awaited. I have been terrified of having a baby and not knowing who the father is and even when reassured the baby is DP's I worry about what happened anyway. I am starting to get help and know I am ill but still can't stop thinking about it. Hopefully I will start to feel better and can look forward to the birth and being a family.

YommyMommy · 21/10/2012 18:05

I'm going through a really horrible time with Anxiety at the moment too...often feel like I'm going to end up in a straight jacket in the padded cell! It's really horrible to think like that! I am waiting to see CPN, they there is currently a 6 week waiting list Sad I'm wondering if I should just pay to see one out with the NHS. I've had CTB a few years ago and have been better for a long time...but I gave been physically unwell lately and it has really knocked me for 6 (mentally).

It's scary how bad anxiety can make you feel Sad

At times I just want to run away n hide from everything and everyone Sad x x

cappucinogirl4 · 21/10/2012 18:49

Oh Lisa and yommy. I haven't got any practical advice but just wanted to say you're not alone.Anxiety is a bastard to live with.SOme days I wonder how I am going to get through the next 10 minutes never mind the whole day.I watch the clock ticking down to 6pm when I can take my meds which knock me out and let me sleep.It doesn't matter what state I'm in after then as Dh is back from work and can look after the kids.It's a horrible way to live but I am clinging on to the hope that cbt counselling helps.IF you can afford it Yommy then go for it.I have been waiting for nearly a year on the Nhs.
Big unmumsnetty hugs ((((()))))

YommyMommy · 21/10/2012 19:12

Thank you cuppu...it is a complete bastard to live with?? What meds are you on?? I couldn't taken anything that knocks me out as I have 2 lo's alone when my DH works off shore. I have recently been given a drug which has help alot called stentamol (sp) its mainly used for sickness and vertigo, but can b used for anxiety in the short term - not sure what the short term is though) I go back to my GP on wed so will see what she says.

My anxiety is pretty high today as DH is away back to work in morning :/

X x

Mylittlepuds · 21/10/2012 19:36

Lisa. I have read your other posts on other threads and it's clear you're suffering from anxiety and you've latched onto this one thought inparticular. I really, really feel for you as I've had obsessional thoughts throughout the course of my journey with anxiety. Now others may disagree but if I was you - despite being a completely irrational thought brought on through antenatal anxiety caused by fluctuations in hormones in my opinion - i'd still want to just rule it out for my own sanity. I'd ask if you can talk to your boss but then you'd worry about the taxi driver. If was you I'd talk to your midwife/GP with your partner present, discuss your fears and let her put your mind at rest. A dating scan can only be three days out either way. That is all. Let her do the calculation in front of you both. I hope this helps and you have my sincere sympathies. I hope you can put this to rest and enjoy your pregnancy. X

Mylittlepuds · 21/10/2012 19:39

I feel for all of you. It really is shit. We're not going mad - that's the anxiety talking. Take a 'fuck it' attitude. It's already made you feel worse than hell so bring the anxiety on. You will realise there is nothing to fear.

lisa2104 · 21/10/2012 20:26

I had CBT with my first bout and it really worked. The reason I think it's back is because I left my job last year to go travelling in South East Asia then moved down south from the mids. I found a new job and it was very stressful so I quit to do a course in a new career which I was nervous and excited about. Then a week after that I found out I was pregnant. That was a week after the night out which has made me so paranoid and anxious. Looking back I was going out quite a bit and drinking but wasn't doing anything terrible except one night I flirted with a guy while I was out with my bloke. I was over the moon at getting pregnant as was starting to think I never would but I think it seems far too good to be true there has to be a catch. Anyway I have one out of control worrying this baby isn't my DP's even though I have been told there's no way I got pregnant on that night. Hopefully CBT or some kind of therapy will help me get rid of these negative thoughts and help me relax and enjoy a baby which I know is my DPs. I actually feel a bit guilty when I read your stories because I think I being really silly. Hope u ladies get some help and not just drugs because I think someone needs to talk to you too

lisa2104 · 21/10/2012 20:36

Mylittlepuds. I have gone over whether to ask my boss all day but I think Iay be severely embarrassing myself for little gain. If he says yes we did something what can I do about it. If he says we didn't then I will feel better but will I wonder whether he is lying? I don't know

cappucinogirl4 · 21/10/2012 20:44

Yommy I take mirtazapine and risperdal. I've not heard of your meds! There are so many to try though. It may take a while to find one that suits. I understand your anxieties about dh working away. Do you have rl support?
Thinking of you .....

YommyMommy · 22/10/2012 08:50

Morning ladies,

How are you all feeling this morning?? I'm not too bad Smile better than I thought I would have been.

I'm going to have a negative knickers off positive panties on kinda day!! Are you all with me Grin x x