Sorry to start another thread, but I really don't know how I am going to get through this

[emkana]

I'm sorry it's me again. \link{http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk?topicid=49&threadid=153980&stamp=060313200747\background here}

I feel so alone in all this. Dh says there's nothing we can do anyway, just not to worry and we will be fine no matter what the outcome. Which is an admirable attitude, but not one I can share a lot of the time because I just feel so sad and so f*ing SCARED.

The so-called health professionals have now left me with this uncertainty hanging over my head, but are otherwise giving no help whatsoever. Thought about phoning midwife, but her bloody mobile is always turned off. Don't know who else I could phone to ask about counselling.

The dd's are getting more and more excited as time goes on and are talking more and more about the baby, and that's nearly the hardest thing. I so want to share their joy and excitement but I can't.

I don't know what to do with myself.

I sooooooo wish that we had never seen another consultant at our local hospital, because the old one wouldn't have referred us to the fetal medicine unit because he saw no need, and if we hadn't gone there then I wouldn't be feeling this way now.

emkana, I know someone I could put you in touch with, not an expert in this field (afaik) and it wouldn't be face-to-face, but it might be something, a good listening ear to talk/mail to. CAT me (I haven't paid the CAT charge) if you like.
Thinking of you. I thought this might be your thread when I saw the title. Never be sorry for starting threads - it's in situations like this that MN is at its best, I think.

foundintranslation - thank you.
I haven't paid the CAT charge either .

You could e/mail me: emkana at gmx dot net