Debilitatingly self-deprecating

[QuietlyMuddling]

Would just like some advice, really.
Since having DD1, 18 yrs ago, I have struggled to socialise or even going out in public. Some times are worse than others, but I feel unworthy of anything. I can accept that I am not much to look at, fail at most things (or do them badly) and even bore myself. I know it's not much of an issue for anyone else, but it's pretty much ruined my life. I find myself tonight, as many others before it, at home whilst DH attends a function without me because I really, really didn't want to go. The thought of being around vibrant, attractive people just makes me want to go and hide. I can't even make eye contact with people in normal conversation and I'm afraid I just seem weird to people who don't know me. I have few friends and I'm sure it's because I'm such a wet blanket - I would give myself a wide berth! Any tips on how to (if not completely overcome) at least live without the constant feeling of worthlessness?

Hypnotherapy works wonders. Try it. You have nothing to lose. It isn't cheap but you sound as if you are in a financial position to afford it anyway. You also sound very down atm so try and get some antidepressants from your GP.

How expensive is hypnotherapy? Don't have much disposable income and it's something I'd never considered before.

I think about £40-60 per session but you only need one or two sessions. Try to get help as you are clearly not getting much out of life as things are

That's not so bad. Thanks, may make some enquiries.

You do sound very down and exceptionally down about yourself. I agree about chatting with your GP being a good place to start. You could also check out this website:
www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/consumers.cfm
which has a number of online CBT modules for a variety of things which you might find useful. I was recommended this from an NHS counsellor and thought it'd be a bit crap tbh. But I was surprised that it did help me question my thinking (altho' medication was the thing that was ultimately life-changing for me). Anyway....I really hope you find a happier place soon - I would bet my bottom dollar that if I met you I wouldn't come away thinking half the things you think are the impression you give and how you feel.

www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/consumers.cfm

I agree with day of the triffids You need to see your GP as soon as you can. Pity this is a bank holiday but do go on Tuesday.