Debilitatingly self-deprecating

[QuietlyMuddling]

Would just like some advice, really.
Since having DD1, 18 yrs ago, I have struggled to socialise or even going out in public. Some times are worse than others, but I feel unworthy of anything. I can accept that I am not much to look at, fail at most things (or do them badly) and even bore myself. I know it's not much of an issue for anyone else, but it's pretty much ruined my life. I find myself tonight, as many others before it, at home whilst DH attends a function without me because I really, really didn't want to go. The thought of being around vibrant, attractive people just makes me want to go and hide. I can't even make eye contact with people in normal conversation and I'm afraid I just seem weird to people who don't know me. I have few friends and I'm sure it's because I'm such a wet blanket - I would give myself a wide berth! Any tips on how to (if not completely overcome) at least live without the constant feeling of worthlessness?

[Rezolution]

I agree with day of the triffids You need to see your GP as soon as you can. Pity this is a bank holiday but do go on Tuesday.

[dayofthetriffids]

www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/consumers.cfm

[dayofthetriffids]

You do sound very down and exceptionally down about yourself. I agree about chatting with your GP being a good place to start. You could also check out this website:
www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/consumers.cfm
which has a number of online CBT modules for a variety of things which you might find useful. I was recommended this from an NHS counsellor and thought it'd be a bit crap tbh. But I was surprised that it did help me question my thinking (altho' medication was the thing that was ultimately life-changing for me). Anyway....I really hope you find a happier place soon - I would bet my bottom dollar that if I met you I wouldn't come away thinking half the things you think are the impression you give and how you feel.

[QuietlyMuddling]

That's not so bad. Thanks, may make some enquiries.

[Rezolution]

I think about £40-60 per session but you only need one or two sessions. Try to get help as you are clearly not getting much out of life as things are

[QuietlyMuddling]

How expensive is hypnotherapy? Don't have much disposable income and it's something I'd never considered before.

[Rezolution]

Hypnotherapy works wonders. Try it. You have nothing to lose. It isn't cheap but you sound as if you are in a financial position to afford it anyway. You also sound very down atm so try and get some antidepressants from your GP.