Oh Misdee. This is so understandable. Of course you must feel like this. Relatives get worn down within days or weeks, let alone months like it has been with you and Peter.
What is the situation with the possibility of Peter coming home again? How is he getting along? What is his state mentally? It is very hard for a person to spend such a long time in hospital. How do you feel he is coping at the moment? Is he free of infections?
Have you told him how you are feeling? I think if you told him more calmly how you were feeling then he might be more understanding. It can be very hard to keep a sense of perspective when you are in effect trapped every day. But then, it is trapping for you too.
Could you go and get your hair done, nails done, facial, massage, anything, all of the above? I know DD3 is still tiny, but how old are your other two? Are they both usually in school? Could someone just have DD3 for a while whilest you did the above? A friend and I had our hair done yesterday, we took turns and looked after the boys. I felt almost glam today .
You so do need to take some time for you. I can't imagine what it must be like for you atm. I moan that I don't get out much. I dread to think how much socialising and 'fun' stuff you manage to do. You do put things in perspective. I wish there was something I could do to help you. xxx