i have had enough, i want out of this life.

[misdee]

thats it. i cant take any more. just want to give up. no more, just stop it all now. i cant cope, my life is falling apart. my girls deserve better than me. peter deserves better.

[misdee]

homestart? think i am out of their area now.

[Mercy]

Misdee, have you contacted Home Start or Sure Start? Does the hospital offer a support group or counselling for families of patients?

god, you poor wee thing. You just keep on going don't you? You must be emotionally and physically exhausted. Have you discussed this with your gp?

[Mercy]

Homestart operate uk wide if that's what you mean

[KateF]

Misdee, I have read some of your threads about your dh and you are just the strongest person and best mum I can imagine. So sorry you are feeling like this . My dad suffered from cardiac probs for 20 years and used to lose track of the fact that the rest of the family were having to get on with normal life while he was in hospital. Your dh has probably forgotten what normal family routine is like but it's not your fault.
You must be entitled to Homestart help at the very least and I would think you would be a priority if you contacted them.
Please contact your HV/GP tomorrow as you need looking after too.
Don't know where you are but if you are anywhere near South Beds I would do my best to help.

[VeniVidiVickiQV]

Misdee, is there anything i can do to help? I dont live terribly far from you (north london).

[lucy5]

Dont really know what to say but from what I have read you are one of the strongest women on here. But you are not super human, you need a break. I dont know what help is available but there will be someone on here who knows. Hold on, you are doing a great job.

[bubble99]

I wish I could do something practical, too.

Try and get a good sleep tonight, misdee, things will seem better in the morning.

XX

[expatinscotland]

Sorry, misdee. Thinking of you . . .

[WideWebWitch]

homestart

[sweetkitty]

Aww misdee I think it's only natural to sometimes feel the way you do and thats for people who don't have the stuff you have to deal with. Don't be too hard on yourself you always sound like a great wife and mother.

Just wanted to offer you some support and some virtual hugs, take care of yourself and rant on here as much as you want.

S x

[mummyhill]

((((hugs)))) thinking of you. Wish I lived closer so I could be of practical help. In the meantime my thoughts and prayers are with you. You have shown yourself to be a good wife and mother. You are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. I understand that you cannot go on forever and it would be foolish for anyone to expect you to. You need to find some time for yourself please speak to gp or hv and see if they can help you find a solution.

[misdee]

i have emailed homestart.

[VeniVidiVickiQV]

Misdee, offer is open - what can i do?

[galaxy]

misdee. No pratical advice but just wanted to say that I think you are so strong and I have utmost admiration for you.

[Janh]

misdee, I just looked at WWW's homestart link and I'm so glad you have contacted them. You and the girls really really deserve some support and help and I hope they'll be able to give it so that you can spend more time with Peter and make you all feel better. You are an angel, honestly.

[KateF]

Misdee, I know getting to the GP is a pain with thre lo's but he/she should be able to contact homestart as well and support your application as an emergency.

[KBear]

misdee we're all rooting for you here, I wish I lived nearby, we all do. Come on, don't give up now, you'll get through this. Peter having the hump is understandable but ignore it, he doesn't mean it but his life is isolated and he depends on you but you're taking the all the strain. Don't feel guilty for wanting time out.

I've just read about Homestart, I'm sure they'll help you. Good luck.

[misdee]

thanks, feeling a bit better now.

[VeniVidiVickiQV]

?????

[misdee]

i really had had enough. peter had peed me off (dont want to get into what happened tho), and tbh i still feel not apprciated fully. i am juggling kids and caring for peter. plus i have to sort out VAD training, dd2 assessment and her appointments, dd1 needs an eye check, i need a general MOT and tofind out what other painkillers and anti inflammorties i can take if i am breastfeeding, tho i feel like iwill give up after dd3 is 12months old anyway, so maybe i can cope with another 2 months of aching bones.

[JenumGeranium]

Where abouts are you Misdee? You said you go to Harefield, well I dont think I am too far from there.

I like some others on here have never posted on one of your threads, but I do read them and I see you as a very strong person with a lot on your plate (I know that doesnt do it justice!).

If you are near to me I would love to be able to help you out.

[sparklymieow]

hey, I don't mind helping, you know that!!!!

[handlemecarefully]

Misdee - you're emotionally and physically spent. Christ knows you have so much to deal with . I so hope that Homestart comes good for you