I want to give up

[TheOriginalFAB]

Please can someone give me some head space .

Hi theoriginalfab how are you soon today?
I read your thread last night. I am not surprised you are feeling how you are. All these circumstances would make the strongest of people struggle.
It's great that you have turned to MN...lovely ladies with great advice.

feeling today

"I'm sorry, I don't want to discuss it except with the doctor," if the receptionist asks nosy questions.

Good luck for the day.

FAB I hope you're feeling ok now....I dont "know" you but Ive never thought of you as attention seeking...MN is for support at the end of the day and to know that people are thinking of you and wishing you luck with everything you're having a hard time with. x

I have come home and I am counting the hours until DS1 comes home at 4pm. I can not wait to see him and I have decided he is not going back to my inlaws tomorrow to have another day of teaching.

Both the head and deputy head were in the playground today but I just ignored them.

I am heartbroken about all this. How dare the school not protect our children and treat them and us with such disdain.

I am having an easy day as I just can't face doing anything.

Hi FAB, I remember your threads about your cat, you still have her, thats 'fab'(cheap joke) . I pts my lovely old cat last year, still miss her, but remember her very fondly (I was ImeldaM & arfasleep, might have posted with you as one of these).

You have a lot on your plate, no wonder you are stressed/depressed and don't let anyone make you feel you are attention seeking, they can fuck off and not bother reading/commenting.

Look after yourself and try to be kind to yourself. I would agree that a referral to a CPN might be a good idea, I have found their support to be fantastic in the past.

Hello MrsV, I remember you as ImeldaM and your lovely cat. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope to be able to speak to the vet today about FABCat.

I have been sick earlier as I was coughing so much and just want my children home where I know they will be safe.

theoriginalfab can I just say how compassionate you sound...when you talk about your DCs...DH..cat & when talking with others. A quality that you should be proud of.

thank you.

Hello sorry you're having such an awful time at the moment:(

Did you manage to make an appointment to see your doctor? Tianc is right you don't have to discuss why you're going with the receptionist. Just say it's ongoing/personal. If you have a sympathetic doctor they're worth their weight in gold. I hope you have one you can really talk to. Bad things happening in your life need to be talked about if they're making you ill. The doctor may not be able to fix them, but often talking about the problems puts them in perspective.

Hope you're having a better day today x

I did'nt ring the GP today as I just couldn't face it but I do feel a bit better today and DH and I now have a plan for getting the children out of the school. I feel like I had a better sleep last night and that has helped.

Well it sounds like you've made real progress on one front today, so have a and a , you've earned them.

GP can wait for tomorrow. I guess you're due another appointment anyway wrt the tests, so there's no need for the receptionist to imagine you want to raise other issues too.

DS2 has been picked on today.

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FAB The school sounds awful, its not you its the head teacher not being strict enough with the bullying. Kids will always find a reason to be nasty to one another if they're like that and its not your fault.

Imagine what the kids would be going through right now if you had killed yourself last night? Their Mum missing when they need her most to comfort them and tell them that everything will be OK, its not good.

You're the best person in the world for your kids to be around be strong for them they need you.

I was to read your "if you had killed yourself" as I had completely forgotten about that. I am moare than glad I didn't!!

I nned to take control though with the school.

DH has spoken to the council today and we have been told the governors have to answer by law but haven't got a time limit.

And now my microwave has just melted.

Its horrible thinking about not wanting to wake up in the morning but I can understand how it is to be caught up in that hopelessness (Is that even a word? ). Ask your doctor for help and keep going maybe some therapy would really help then you can discuss everything and anything you need to discuss with someone whos not going to judge you for it or leave evidence of what you're saying anywhere.

Bloody microwave chuck it in the bin or take some much needed anger therapy out on it, beat it with a bat or plank of wood.

If the Govenors don't reply to your letter in a satisfactory manner you can take it higher than them, give them a set time frame of say 28 days then if you've had no response take it to the next level with would be the education authority. You've been treated appalingly as have your kids and no-one deserves that.

I can't bear the thought of 28 days without a response but then DS1 is out of the school so there isn't anything they can say that will have us send him back and we are almost 100% decided that our other children are leaving if the new school has places for them.

DH is getting us a new microwave tomorrow. It has done 8 years so can't complain really and was to replace the previous one that DS1 set fire too when he was about 3 .

Just need the vet to say FABCat is okay when he sees her tomorrow. My vet is lovely, gorgeous accent too, and I feel sorry that one day he will have to say those dreaded words as he knows how much she means to me.

Sorry I haven't been back today as I was was working late, but I was thinking about you. I'm glad to see you're in a better place today; sometimes it helps just to talk to others.
I'm sure you will find the strength to sort out a better school situation for your children. It's horrible when they are being picked on is almost every day.
I hope your cat gets on ok at the vet tomorrow, and that you don't have to say goodbye to her yet.

Thank you for thinking of me. Today has been manic with lots going on but it has kept me from sitting and fretting. When I felt muself getting tired and fed up I went on the rowing machine for 20 minutes.

DECISION MADE!! Kids are all leaving the current school they are at and going to a lovely school we have found that has smaller class sizes, where a child has been expelled for bullying (the head won't stand for it) and where the facilities are fantastic.

Thank you Tianc. You all helped so much last night. I feel rather stupid now that I was so pathetic.

Nah, not stupid at all ? just brought very low by far, far too much shit happening at once. SOME OF WHICH IS NOW OVER!

Slightly premature as the school might not have spaces. Monday can't come soon enough!

Busy day today - trainer shopping for DS1, cat to the vet but at least DS1 is home < that is me. I missed him so much.

Hope all goes well for your cat at the vets!