Don't feel like I can go on anymore:(

[musicmummy]

I have changed my name for this, I am a reg poster.

I haven't felt particularly good since my son was born 1 year ago, but I feel that I am just getting lower and lower by the day. I was traeted for PND in July, but was fobbed of with ADs which just gave me insomnia and haven't lifted my mood at all. Things are getting really bad at the moment, as my DP has just as good as said that he finds me unattractive ( as I have put on alot of weight since having DS, as I comfort eat alot) and I really feel snubbed by all of my friends

Things came to a head on Friday, when it was DS's birthday. It was the first thing in ages that I had actually looked forward to, and I felt that I was turning a bit of a corner. However, we held a bit of a party for DS, nothing special, but we had invited a few people round for a drink etc. Not one of my so called friends turned up, and DP and I sat like a couple of lemons- Not even one of them rang to say why. it just made me feel even more of a worthless blimp. I really hate myself. I can't go on like this.

i also think you MUST change your life. It is making you ill, I think. You would get a lot of childcare covered by benefits if you worked in teh day and not the night.

That's a step forward mm. Well done for talking to him.
No wonder you're down and exhausted with that schedule. I agree with Aloha.

Sorry you are having such a hard time MM. I hope you get the help and support you need.

xx

Could you get your doctor to sign you off sick for a week of "respite"? My DP is lovely but just cannot understand the female hormone thing. Never will. Men just don't get it, so don't become upset if ever he seems to not be supportive of you- he probably is but men can't understand something they can't esperience so don't fret.

experience even

how are you feeling today mm?

chin up musicmummy all will be good in the end.

i didnt really understand pnd but i now know what can happen.

my dp went through it and to be honest i thought at times like it was all put on.
but i now know it isnt. it is hard sometimes for us men to understand but i think we all do eventually.

Hi MM, just wondering how you were? I really hope you are feeling better.

Hi there. Still not feeling great, and not sleeping either, but I do feel a little more positive about certain things. I am going to join Slimming World next week, and try and focus a little bit on getting myself healthier. I had a good chat with DP about it, and he has said that he will pay for me to go and also follow the diet with me. (Will wait until after the new year though, as have too much chocolate to eat.)

I do still feel like I have a long long way to go, but I can see as little chink of light at the end of the tunnel (for want of a better cliche!) I saw my HV last week, and she is going to pop and see me in the next fortnight or so.

Thanks for all your supportive message, they really helped me xxx

dump yer useless mates pull yourself up... an fake it till you make it!!! stuff slimming world, unless your determined it wont work and stop being so self indulgant.....(yes im you too,but i do belive in the fakeing it bit!!)be good to the kids...walk the dog..if you havnt got one ,get one!!much more loyal than mates.enjoy life an make 06 the year.good luck an chin up!!!