What were your symptoms of depression?

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Over the past month I have started feeling really tired, I could literally sleep most of the day and have got a twitch in my eye. My concentration is poor and I generally feel like I am underwater and everything is going on around me.

I went to see the doctor last week because my palms had started itching and I had blood tests for liver function, glucose, thyroid etc. At the same time he prescribed citalopram in case there was nothing medically wrong. I started taking it on Sunday after a really bad weekend.

Blood tests came back fine so it now seems like I actually need the citalopram. I think in my head though I was sure it was going to turn out to be a thyroid problem or something? I just don't think I have the symptoms of stress/depression/anxiety? I don't feel depressed, in fact I don't really feel anything? What are the typical symptoms? Should I go back to the doctor or persevere with the citalopram?

Hello, I can anyone relate to depression and feeling like life is all over/or wishing the end would come soon etc in the first trimester.

I am 6 weeks preg and crying all the time, feel lethargic and unmotivated. And my OCD worrying traits have been triggered big time by the pregnancy - second guessing everything I did before I knew I was pregnant and feeling guilty about it. Have now become ambivalent towards having the child whereas the day I found out I was over the moon as it was my first pregnancy at 40! When I realised it's first trimester antenatal depression (ie raging hormones), I felt better about it but am aware that part of me wouldn't even mind that much if I miscarried (yes that's how bad it is, thinking going through a whole pregnancy is not worth the anxiety!). Although that's probably preparation for the fact that I think I may well actually miscarry (due to my age and the fact that I haven't felt the embryo tuggings in the last day or so so wonder if it stopped growing). My pessimism is at it's worst - thinking that I WILL be the 2% whose baby will have a neural tube defect due to the fact that I used a sauna in early pregnancy. That's how I can be without hormone difficulties, let alone with.

Also when I'm down or tired, I tend to worry more about things (like how the pregnancy is going and why I'm not getting bad morning sickness and just mild nausea etc). I get bad PMS and was a terrible psycho on the pill so I guess I am very sensitive to fluctuating hormones. When PMS-ing though, I would feel anger. This time there's not so much anger, more sadness and listlessness. However I do become a nagger at my DH about everything.

My most recent serious bout of depression started with just those symptoms OP. I was so, so tired and it was like my head was filled with cotton wool and it felt like my limbs had lead weights on them. I would get home from work in the evening and be too tired to even watch TV. Ended up being disciplined at work because, not surprisingly, my performance had dropped.

Like you I ended up going for blood tests. I really, really wanted them to show something physically wrong but the were perfect apart from high cholrsterol My mum was shocked that I wanted to be sick but I’d much rather have a physically issue that can hopefully be fixed than my mental health issues which are a life long struggle for me.

It also would have been much easier to say to work I have some physical ailment, need a couple of weeks off and then I’ll be fine. Instead, I had to divulge my mental health struggles and to be honest work didn’t treat me well. I think the physical side of depression is very misunderstood.