Please can I have some advice?

[OurLittleSecret]

Hi
I have been trying to pluck up the courage, for some considerable time now, to ask my GP for help re issues dealing with childhood abuse. The GP is very briefly aware of this as I had a wobble in last pg, and has in the past offered her help, though I have always said "i'm fine" (though clearly not).

Monday night , I plucked up the courage with the help of MN to drop a note into surgery asking for help with the matter. I had already not managed to face an appt the week before.

Tues and Weds I had missed calls from GP sec, with one msg left asking me to call back. I have made a few attempts, once it just rang and rang, then she wasnt in, other than this I have generally hung up in the queue - cause I just cant face it.

I dont want to be a PITA - but really am not sure where to go from here? I just cant seem to get the courage to phone :(

You still there? Will be here for the next half hour if you need a chat

Still here if you are madmouse?

yep - what's going on ?

If I'm honest I think it's all just got a bit much again- just as I thought things were going so well. There's so much going on tbh. My eldest dc (toddler) has been poorly and is awaiting investigations at great ormond street. Cut a long story short the condition that we have been managing well for months has just become unmanageable again it's all in all just too much I think. It makes me so sad to see her unwell

Nothing that gets us so badly as our children being poorly - my ds hasn't had anything serious since his terrifying newborn days, but still you worry.

Unmanageable doesn't sound good - how long will you have to wait?

I know- it's pants

I spoke to the surgeons registrar today, and they are going to chase up gos and get back to me with a plan. Trying to avoid too many general anaesthetics.
I think I am just getting a bit bogged down again
Still haven't managed to speak to the gp- but that said I really had been feeling better.
I expect dc will be an inpatient by the end of the week somewhere as the situation is unsustainable

You need to give priority to your dc at this point there is really no alternative. Inpatient is so draining and difficult, but unsustainable at home is no good either - sounds like between rock and hard place

Don't kid yourself about feeling better - you really need to deal with things before you really will feel better. But there is no need to get totally overwhelmed and it will wait until dd is on more steady ground.

Need to go now as having bad nights adn running on dangerous deficit - wil lbe here again tomorrow. Hope you get some rest.

No fear about giving dd priority- she has it. Admittedly not looking forward to another inpt trip but needs must. Got bog all sleep tbh cause I was listening out for her as frequent night time wakings/ screaming in sleep is common when she is poorly. Dh has now woken up with bloody man flu and we have workmen in today so ought to get out of the house but energy is low. Hope you got some sleep madmouse

Sorry you didn't get a lot of sleep - how are things today?

Just got back from a crazy day out with dcs. Have heard from the teaching hosp that had been dealing with dd and they assured me that great ormond street is the next place we will be going- just waiting to hear when she will on the list. Meanwhile I am obv being very careful to manage the situation as best I can to avoid things going completely tits up. I have to admit I am not sure how I am gonna do the gos trip with a baby in tow too and maybe no back up from dh as self employed- no doubt I will find a way. This is when I could do with rent an angel to help me out- rid a long drive overnight stay - maybe more etc