have emergancy mental health team visiting me tomorow, can they take my kids away? i'm scared!

[mannicmummyhavinaiccy]

I have PND, for the 3rd time, but, i think due to trauma whilst pregnant, its worse than ever. had a gp appoinment and done that stupid questionare AGAIN, he said the score was very high, and caled the MHT there and then, they are visiting me at home tomorow, im a single mum of 3 (6 week old dd2) all alone, so they will be here at the visit, im scared they will call social servises if I tell them how truely bad im feeling (have a few suisdal thoughts) and with no one to take them, they will endup in care (cant blame them, as im not a good mum at the moment, and dont want them seeing me like this any way) I need help but should I hide some things or should I give my asshole xp custordy? I need some advise, im very scarred, will never forgive myself for what im putting them through, but I really cant help it, but if they end up in care, I cant put them through that. help

But if BF is important to you, and going well, then don't feel you have to stop in order to take medication. You can take ADs and breastfeed. I did stop BF when my son was about 5 weeks because I couldn't look after him properly at that point and had to hand him over to my partner and my mum. However, washing and sterilizing bottles is a pain and frankly was just one thing I could have done without for many, many weeks. Essentially, do what's best for you on the feeding front - your baby will be fine either way.

Narmada feeling a bit more positive at times today thanks, it's reasuring to hear about your ds x I'm in Milton Keynes. My mother just turned up yesterday, it's reasuring to have someone here, even if she has repeatedly told me to 'snap out of it' she can't stay long, and I've lived here for a year now, and havn't made friends here, my friends back in London are great and understanding but work most of the time and have littleones and there own lives to worry about. I WILL try to get help on Tuesday morning, but I don't think I can take another knock back. I don't want to give the kids to xp but I want what's best for them and that isn't me. trying4baby1 thank you, and thanks every one for posting on this thread, I has made me feel a little less alone.
Sorry about the spelling in my posts, I'm finding it hard to do the simplist of things, I can't speak, I stammer and can't remember things. I just wish I could snap out of it.

theoriginalfab thank you.

hi,iam from MILTON KEYNES,i have 3dcs myself,if i can be of any help or just a ear 4 u feel free to email me
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manic really glad you've got some company, even if your mum's not always saying the right things. Some poeple really do not get depression at all, no slight to your mum intended; I think most people just think you're experiencing 'normal' new mum difficulty and just don't get how hard it can be when you're properly ill.

Are you taking the antidepressants yet? personally, I would start taking them - I think the risk to your baby through breastmilk is lowish, and you can ask to swap to another more BF-friendly medication (sertraline etc.) on tuesday when you can see the doctor. There's usually no problem swapping between different types of SSRI (that's the group of meds you've been prescribed).

Re your kids and you not being the best thing for them, you absolutely are, even if you don't think you are at the moment. I thought like this too, and everyone tried to tell me the worst thing would be for me to go away (I wanted to go into a mother and baby unit as I felt I couldn't cope at home). Now I am better I think they were right - moving to your ex-ps place would be a big adjustment for them if it were a permanent move. Could he maybe take them on a short-term basis if you feel you really need a break?