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Mental health

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Well that was a waste of time.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 11/04/2011 19:48

Emailed the Samaritans, got the standard reply 'I am glad that you have found the courage to contact
Samaritans at this difficult time in your life' and 'have you considered your GP' (I had already said that i didn't want to go back) and 'Samaritans are here to offer emotional support. However, we
cannot give you advice, but we can offer a space to talk about
your feelings without judgment and in confidence. '

Why did i bother?!
I don't even know why i mailed except i needed to tell someone i was struggling.

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FAB5 · 13/04/2011 21:06

No worries. I have had a lot of support from mumsnetters and it is only right I try and give support when needed. Take care.

cjel · 13/04/2011 21:28

only just got here but wanted to say hang in there BoS, bad time will always go,don't think you go on, I think you are very worried about bothering people which is why you chose someone like samaritans who are supposed to be there to help so you wouldn't have that feeling of always needing. Hope you will be brave enough to scream and shout for what you want. You are so very worth itxx

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BucketOfSoldiers · 13/04/2011 21:47

Cjel - that is a very kind thing to say but I'm really and truly not worth it!

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 08:39

YOU ARE.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 10:17

Oh FAB5, I'm really not. I never have been either.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 10:17

Oh FAB5, I'm really not. I never have been either.

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 12:31

Bucket - I have been where you are and have posted and thought similar things. You need to get some professional help as you deserve to live your life happily and in good health. Please call your doctor.

cjel · 14/04/2011 13:16

PLEASE PLEASE LISTEN. You are so worth loads of good things and wonderful mental health. Don't spend any more time listening to your negative massages you are giving yourself, They have had enough of your life already. I know you'll say that I don't know you so I don't understand you in your mind - but that is the nature of the beast you are to used to listening and taking notice of the crap you feed yourself. Its time you gave youreslf a break and think of the lovely strong woman you will be. 'Its NEVER too late to be who youmight have been.' Mary anne evans(george Elliot)

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 17:50

I can't call my GP. I am not comfortable with any of them. The one that i was seeing a year or so ago was great but she was not a GP, just a nurse practitioner and I exhausted all the things that she could do to help me. SHe was left with transferring me over to psych unit at hospital. And it's not something i am telling myself either, i have been told it and still am told it!

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 17:56

Who is telling you these negative things and what are they saying?

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 18:05

Nothing is good enough, whatever i do is criticised to me as well as behind my back. Even my own DCs call me useless.

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 18:09

Drop friends who criticise you behind your back.
Tell your children that they are not to talk to you like that.
Make yourself believe you deserve respect.
Don't give up on yourself.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 18:13

It's not just friends.

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 18:20

Family as well? If so, tell them to stop it. Ask them why they are being so ride/mean/cruel.

You have to get out of this cycle or you will not be happy or well.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 14/04/2011 18:22

Unfortunately it's not that easy :/

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FAB5 · 14/04/2011 18:24

Nothing worthwhile ever is.

cjel · 14/04/2011 19:18

Not sure its a good time to confront everyone with what they are saying to you, but I do know that if you hear things and take them in you will be repeating them to yourself when you are down. Since christmas I made a pact to not give negative messages any more space and have found just a couple of people- a counsellor and tutor, who don't see me that way and its amazing how just a few months on I am starting to listen to their voices instead.I am really starting to take in that I am OK in fact I'm great and I quite like myself!!!! Once I started to believe in my ability I found people either critisise less or I can really see its their problem not mine its a great feeling. I would fight for yourself like crazy (only internally if you have to )give yourself a break and be your own best mate. could you find a counsellor or someone who can confirm your worth who you can start to believe?xx

cjel · 14/04/2011 19:23

Just want to add, I didn't mean to underestimate the crap you are being told, but I am trying to get over that if you didn't listen you won't be hearing it. Try to have positive thoughts about yourself running through your head and conciously try and limit the times you replay the crap, hope it makes sense, I'm in no way trying to say its simple and easy for you just trying to encourage you that you can do it, I so want to help, having been through similar for decades and now out of it.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 15/04/2011 10:56

But's not crap. It's true

Anyway - doesn't matter. Not arguing about it. I can't confront - As things stand i may lose a lot in the near future anyway (marriage issues) so any confrontation will happen during that conversation. There is a lot going on at the moment.

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FAB5 · 15/04/2011 11:44

Sorry if I have not helped and have made things worse.

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BucketOfSoldiers · 15/04/2011 11:47

YOu haven't FAB5 don't worry.

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Becaroooo · 15/04/2011 11:58

BoS You are a human being and human beings deserve respect and to have an understanding of their self worth....

You have as much right to your feelings - whatever they are! - as your family and friends.

I am very sorry your family treat you like this and make you feel so bad about yourself...have they never heard of a self fullfilling prophecy????

Stop doing things for them. I mean it. Just stop doing all the things you do. Then let them tell you that you are "useless", ok?

cjel · 15/04/2011 17:02

I always think confrontation is too hard and not always worth the effort - especially depending on what they already think of you - you can't win. just want to say try and love and take care of yourself. thinking about youxxx

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BucketOfSoldiers · 16/04/2011 21:35

Just wanted to say thank you all for posting. Especially as there are others in greater need here right now.

Think i will retire this name change now and have a break for a bit.

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FAB5 · 16/04/2011 21:48

There is enough support to go around. If you need it, it is here.

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