Hi everyone, please could someone help me? I suffer on and off from depression. I saw my doctor 2 weeks ago and he put me back on Sertraline. I don't feel it's properly kicked in yet but am being patient because it has worked for me in the past.
My problem is around telling people I'm unwell and not coping properly. I'm finding it hard to get going in a morning and am shying away from social events.
I have let two people down in three days - one, on Friday, a friend I was supposed to be meeting for lunch. There was a mix-up over day and time and I used that to get out of the arrangement. As there was a mix-up my friend probably didn't suspect anything was amiss.
Then yesterday I wriggled out of going to a football match where another friend was expecting to see me. I let my DS go in my place and asked DH to tell the friend I was under the weather. I know that this friend has no truck with taking ADs - she told me this a while ago - so I am uncomfortable.
In both cases I feel guilty for letting them down and not giving a proper reason, yet I am nervous about calling them to explain.
On the face of it I have everything going for me and think people will think "her, of all people, why on earth should she be depressed?"
I know there will be kindred spirits on this board; please would you share your thoughts...I feel like I should apologise for a)being such a misery and b) bothering you all with a trivial issue, but I've been feeling SO down all weekend
Thanks so much