Nobody tells you how utterly draining, exhausting, depressing it is waiting for someone to die when the death has been 'expected' for years. Got told 4 years ago person might die as soon as 6 months but might be lucky and have a couple of years. Ok. Spent the next year spending every possible minute with them. Watched all their favourite movies with them. Listened to their favourite songs with them. Talked about loved ones and memories. Took them for lots of nice walks/outings. Basically put my own life on hold and compromised my own health to give them a nice 'ending'.
Except they didn't fucking die did they. So much for doctors predictions.
At first I was glad to have extra time. It felt like a gift. It felt like we had stuck two fingers up to death. As time has gone on though and the person needs everything done for them (EVERYTHING!) but still they linger on.
They go into hospital (about once every couple of months)- carers have to be cancelled, shopping has to be cancelled, perscription deliveries have to be cancelled, constant phone calls from hospital nurses ' can you bring this in, can you collect dirty washing, when are you visiting'
Then they are ready to come out of hospital. Carers have to be found and reinstated and everything else has to be put back in place.
Meanwhile having agreed to go into a carehome (social say person does now need 24 hour a day care) person has now told social they don't want to leave their own home.
Everyone around them (ok not everyone, just those involved) are on their knees with ill health, mental stress from the constant waiting, exhaustion from never knowing what is coming next and still the person keeps hanging on.
On about 30 tablets a day, requires washed, fed, dressed, help to leave house, taken to all appointments, all housework done, all admin done, entertained and you never know from one day to the next when the next fall or hospital visit, dentist emergency, optician emergency, will be. They are not like 'normal' people going to the dentist twice a year. They seem to need to go every month so their appointments are about 10 times those of a normal person. Constant infections, bleeding, bruising, swollen ankles, can't breathe, can't eat, can't sleep and still they go on.
Why god, why! I fear I might die first from the stress.
For those of you who have been asked by your gp or social or a nurse to 'help out with your parent' because they probably don't have long left anyway (ha, bloody ha) Think long and hard. Really long and hard. If fact don't think just turn the other way and run.
The NHS seems hell bent on keeping old sick people with no quality of life alive as long as possible even though the trail of destruction behind them far outweights the benefit of keeping them alive.
I used to see people at funerals and assume they were all sad. Of course people at funerals for young people will be sad. Now I realise for those who have elderly parents who have lingered and lingered and lingered they are not sad at the funerals they are RELIEVED. GLAD. Probably cracking open the bloody champagne in the evening.
For those of you who have never been in this position for years you have NO idea what you are talking about so don't bother commenting. (I had no idea before I did it and would have thought differently)
So tell me who is benefiting from this shitshow.
Old person - nope miserable, ill and poor quality of life
Anyone helping - nope, miserable, ill, poor quality of life
NHS/Social - resources being used HUGE, benefits ??
Finally in last few weeks I have taken a stand and withdrawn support. Literally had to shout at social and hospital nurses who seems to ignore the fact the 'carer' is having a nervous breakdown telling them to 'carry on what they are doing'. NO. NO. NO.
This will force a care home entry which is what is needed. NEVER AGAIN.
Elderly parents
So bloody exhausted waiting for someone to die...
Poochypaws · 07/08/2023 13:35
studentgrant · 07/08/2023 13:37
The NHS seems hell bent on keeping old sick people with no quality of life alive as long as possible even though the trail of destruction behind them far outweights the benefit of keeping them alive.
I fing that a very sinister remark
Oneweektogo2023 · 07/08/2023 13:36
I pray Euthanasia becomes legal in the next few years I would like to exit in my own terms.
LadyMacbethssweetArabianhand · 07/08/2023 13:40
I hear you. My mum is in hospital being assessed. She is doubly incontinent, sleeps most of the time and has significant cognitive impairment and delirium. She can barely have a conversation anymore. She has no quality of life. I am refusing to offer any care.
Oneweektogo2023 · 07/08/2023 13:36
I pray Euthanasia becomes legal in the next few years I would like to exit in my own terms.
RatherBeRiding · 07/08/2023 13:41
I hear you OP - been there. It is utterly draining and relentless - well done for taking a stand to force a care home admission. Hope it works out - for you both. The person you are caring for would be much better off with professional carers who are not drained and exhausted.
studentgrant · 07/08/2023 13:37
The NHS seems hell bent on keeping old sick people with no quality of life alive as long as possible even though the trail of destruction behind them far outweights the benefit of keeping them alive.
I fing that a very sinister remark
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