Any advice as to how to cope. Married 15 years with kids. During this time I've felt very alone, unloved, unsupported and overwhelmed with everything. I felt like I didn't exist. I asked for help and assistance with managing our lives as it was mostly left to me but I got no help. Just a sense from him that I am not doing a good enough job of managing it all. We've had money issues and when I've asked him to see if he can get a better paid job it was met with more contempt and a refusal to consider my request. I've had to remortgage our house to cover bills. I've worked part time whilst also looking after 3 kids. I've now just gone full time. He doesn't help with much at home other than mowing the lawn. I've been so stressed and depressed and it's become worse and worse. I told him I felt unloved by him, but nothing changed. Don't get me wrong I'm not perfect and have said things i regret but its always after I try to raise an issue and it gets deflected or denied, then I get annoyed and can start shouting as I just don't feel heard. After an argument between us at the beginning of this year he has not really spoken to me since. After 6 months of this I reluctantly filed for divorce. Since then the silent treatment has continued and I've been accused of being a bully, financial abuse. He's criticised my parenting constantly. He won't move out and said he is going 50/50 custody when I have always been the main carer and work term time around the kids school days. I feel sick every day that he is building a case against me to take the kids away from me. He is not completing the divorce paperwork and I've been waiting 2 months to exchange form e. I still love him and just want him to love me and see me. But he seems to hate me. I blame myself every day. I don't know how I can carry on living in this environment. I feel like I'm getting alienated from the kids by the way I'm spoken to and other subtle ways like not involving himself in much disciplining. So the kids then see me as the horrible one and not him. I can't go for an occupation order as I've been told emotional abuse is hard to prove. I have no family to go to. I can't put it in to words but I feel at the end of my tether and like he is going to ruin me. I've been to women's aid but they can't really help either other than tell me it is emotional abuse. I constantly blame myself and think maybe he is like this because of how I've treated him. But I've only ever felt alone and depressed and although I may have not said the right things in the past I've only ever wanted to resolve issues and make our marriage work.