I had been with my husband since 2011 and he was is the love of my life. I had our son in 2014 the build up was awful as he didn’t want a baby and refused to touch me even after he was born he didn’t want to touch me I asked him that if he wanted to leave please go as I didn’t want him trapped. Years later life was good he proposed and we got married in 2021 then may 2023 I caught him sexting a girl he dated/slept with before we got together. He refused to show me the text messages and said he would be embraced. Over the last years since that I’ve tried my best to to over come the betrayal and grief that caused I’ve gone to counselling and I’ve had the doctor up my antidepressants so I could over come. We started having more intimacy then this year it stopped he went distance again I’ve asked so many times are we ok and is he ok and evertime he would say we are fine and he’s invested we started going fishing together we would have a good time but he didn’t want to do family things saying he hated family stuff and that our boy was trying to replace him and that he fancied me and my mother and son bond was odd and made him uncomfortable making it sound strange. I’ve tried so hard to try and listen and take everything on abroad to make him happy but Monday I came home from work after he had ignored me all day to find him in the kitchen telling me he was leaving and it was all my fault that I hadn’t been nice to him over the years and he hadn’t been in love with me for a while. This has broken me he told me he was moving out so I packed his clothes and he was annoyed with me because he wanted to take a bag at a time and go through it I went in a safe that he had in our bedroom cupboard and he had the girls number he cheated with written on a lotto ticket dated from 2014. I told him I had looked and he was deeply offended and I had over stepped the mark going in there and he wanted in his words to fucking head butt me I’ve never spoken to him in a disrespectful way but I screamed for him to get out the house he did. He blames me for him cheating that I hadn’t pushed him into and that my dad who I was really close with that passed away would have stood with him and his choice to leave after I’ve been asking is he ok l. I’ve never felt as lonely and unseen as I have for the last year but apparently it’s all my fault things I’ve done in the past made big things and I’m not capable of change and he needs to put his happiness first now. He’s always told me he hates our boy and can’t wait for him to be 18 so he again in his words can fuck off. I’ve put up with so much and I’m so stupid because I want him to come home. Why can someone you love so much hurt you in this way