I need a really good talking to…
I’ve been married 6 years, together 10. We always had what I thought was the perfect relationship, best friends and lovers. Back in march he suddenly went cold, found out in may he was having an affair with a girl at work young enough to be he’s daughter. The lies he told to me and our 2 children to enable he’s affair are unbelievable. Once I’d found out, he stayed around for a short time then he’s disappeared! I don’t know where he is living, and until recently he’s had little or no interest in seeing the kids. I know the affair is over, but I also know he has been out having a party, I found he had viagra in he’s bag, some of which were missing
the past month or so he’s been more interested in the children and has made more of an effort. He is now asking questions about our lives, but has told me he still loves me but not in the same way
i am financially dependent on him which doesn’t help, but I just can’t get over it or get to a place where I don’t want him! I am disgusted at him, the thought of him touching me makes me feel sick, but I’ve lost my best friend and I can’t let it go. I’ll get angry and spend the whole night texting him, which is just giving him attention and making me look like a desperate fool - but I can’t break free of the cycle! I’ve been to counselling, I’m aware it’s a trauma bond, but I’m going mad and I’m so lonely without him
has anyone else been in a similar situation? How did you break free? I allowed myself to become isolated in our marriage, I don’t really have any friends anymore - he was my everything. Just reading this back, what a desperate state I’ve got myself in…🥲