Im 31 been married for 4 years although we have been together since we were 16! Also have a gorgeous 4 month old baby.
I recently found out that 6-7 years ago he slept with two women behind my back. And up until about 3 years ago, on about 4 occasions he has gone out, chatted up a women, told them he was single and got their phone number. Although he said nothing ever happened and he always deleted the number the next day.
His reasons for doing this are. He got into the police force 7 year ago which was a big ego boost. And sometimes he didn't feel good enough for me, so chatting to another woman made him feel good. I can understand this, I've always had men come up to me if we've been out (more when I was younger) I don't always initiate sex whereas he does. I have commented on his weight before. Only for health reasons, he smokes and doesn't eat very well. Which I think has contributed.
In every other way he is a fantastic husband and dad toour baby. Everyone has always said we're made for each other and friends have always said he's spoke with such love and admiration for me.
I've told him the marriage is over because I feel so betrayed and all the lies. But I miss him so much. I'm scared I'll never meet anyone who I love as much, or who is as nice and perfect for me in so many ways. Or who will love our daughter as much.
But I also feel humiliated. Would I look weak and pathetic to other people for taking him back. And once a cheat always a cheat.
Is this normal to doubt my decision. Do I just need to stick with it and it'll get easier?? It's been a month so far. I feel so sad it's over. We would have had such a happy life together. I wish I'd never found out
Any advice, personal experience would be great