ipos your posts really hit home with me, I feel the same as you a lot. My ds 1 has some special needs and it makes life a bit difficult. Things are better for the moment, but there were many mornings staring at the ceiling dreading how things would go that day. I also completely agree with the point you made about the hobby. Glad to hear counselling helped a bit for you 
fish you got some fantastic bargains, well worth the spend!
creme hope you have a quiet weekend to get you through to pay day. I know that feeling so well. Last month was my first month on the thread, and the first month that I actually had money the week before payday. 
So payday yesterday, went to tesco for a top up shop, spent €86, but my total before special offers and vouchers was €99. Got some great stuff tbh, a box of 76 weetabix for €1, shredded wheat for €1 per box, giant tub of my non negotiable milicano coffee for €4 and some woopsie meat. Bought a dress I had my eye on too, but I'm not mad about it on, so will bring it back, so will get €20 refund.
Heading out for the day with dh, have budgeted for it tho!