Buzz yes, that sense of being surrounded by lunatics....
I now think those people are like real life trolls. I'll never forget a woman coming out of the supermarket, arms raised out to the side with shopping bags so no one could get near her, she took up the whole of the narrow path, forcing people to walk in the road.
Till she came to me, of course...
She had a grin on her face - at the time I thought it was hysteria, but now I think I was spoiling her fun. These are really nasty vicious individuals, and it shocked me how many of them there were.
MH absolutely thrived on this sort of thing. I remember him saying you wouldn't be able to hug your loved ones for a very very long time. There are probably tons who should be "locked up" but we will never know who they are.
I still can't forgive the people who wouldn't meet me when they were allowed to. But I don't miss the old Emma, so things are on the up!