I paid a deposit on a holiday with my partner and we have a date in August to pay the whole holiday off. The holiday is in October. Now I don't want to go. I have covid a few weeks ago and then yesterday and today I am dealing with another virus, maybe norovirus. I am sick.
I don't want to go on holidays now because I just see it as welcoming more sickness into my body and my life. I don't think I want to do this again. The idea of being so sick in recent weeks and then going out and mixing with others on public transport and on flights and on a cruise does not appeal to me. I would prefer to stay at home and spend my hundreds locally.
If this was just me, I would lose the deposit and be happy with my decision but I do have a partner to consider.