Nearly crying in theatre

[4pmwinetimebebeh]

We went to the theatre today with our 3 young kids to watch a Christmas show. It was so lovely, so well done, kids all loved it. At the end as it was wrapping up and the kids were all clapping and cheering and joining in I was just overcome with this huge wave of sadness. That we are all sitting in masks, that we couldn’t do this last year and overwhelmingly that this might be the last time we could do this in a while as things seem to be going to shit again. I had a huge lump in my throat and tears in my eyes and had to really control myself so I didn’t burst into tears.

I don’t want this to trigger anyone but I think we are all just really struggling with the uncertainty and potential for further restrictions again. I was so excited for Christmas and now the potential for another lockdown etc in the New Years has just ruined any good mood I had and I feel sad, anxious and on the verge of tears.

Just a shout out in case anyone is the same. It’s shit.

[quote Cornettoninja]@ScottishPine, my df is currently in hospital waiting to be moved to a hospice for end of life care but can’t because he’s just been diagnosed with covid. I haven’t been able to see him for three months because of visiting restrictions, I’m unlikely to see him in person again at this point.

I cry on occasion for the little things my dd (6) is missing out on including never getting to see her in nativity with a teatowel on her head or other things that should be simple but just aren’t now. I’ve already posted once on this thread so am obviously included in your telling off.

Honestly, take your own advice and read the room.[/quote]
That's my feelings exactly. We're all dealing with really difficult situations but it is so often the simple moments of life that can stop us in our tracks. We should be allowed the time to acknowledge these feelings. It's not wallowing in pity, far from it.

It's really hard to stay positive atm. We went to the panto on Sunday, as we've done every year except the last one since having DC - but I had to explain to DS (7) what it was. He'd forgotten.

I can feel the gloom gathering on me before we've even had Christmas. January is going to be a tough, tough month, and I'm honestly not sure I've got the mental energy to cope with home-schooling if it goes that way.

I can feel the gloom gathering on me before we've even had Christmas. January is going to be a tough, tough month, and I'm honestly not sure I've got the mental energy to cope with home-schooling if it goes that way. 100% agree, I told my kids 'whatever happens it'll be alright' but I am wondering internally.

@wantanotherdog

I think that there is a general sadness around because as adults, we know what normal was like. For younger children, this IS normal - and we don't want this sort of life for them. But remember - you mums are doing an amazing job. Keep smiling in front of your children and keep acting as if all this is just part of every day life and you will help them feel stable in an unstable world. And look after yourselves. It's practically impossible to live without constant reminders from MSM about how difficult all this is (as if we need to be told this!), but try to only listen to the news once a day or it really will add to your sadness. Some of my good friends have died during the pandemic and just thinking about it and not being allowed to go to their funerals makes me a bit teary. I missed another funeral today -an elderly neighbour who died in hospital. I have a terrible cough and although the PCR test was negative, if I'd gone to the church I could have cleared the building in minutes by a fit of coughing. Lots of sadness. BUT this won't last for ever. I promise you. As a much loved 93 year old keeps telling me "The best is yet to come!"

This is so well put, thank you wantanotherdog!

Some people are so clueless "Wah wah, my pain is so much worse , there are starving people, there are wars yada yada...."

Are they not familiar with crying with happiness or relief ? I have welled up on various occasions in the past year or so; I remember when I first ate out to help out, I felt a bit emotional about how the poor pub had made such an effort with their measures. It's only an ordinary pub, and they had tried so flippin' hard.

At the moment I am so sad for my dcs, who should be Peak Living. Ds is stuck in his bedroom wfh. All his friends are doing the same. No meeting new people, no girlfriends, and now the end is further away than ever.

Yes, I feel the same. I really just want to go and have a meal at our local pub, as it's so Christmassy in there. But the spread of Omicron is so fast I ask .myself if it's worth it as I would have to miss Christmas itself if I caught it.

My dishwasher has broken and they can't fix it until28th December because of Covid apparently.

I'm depressed our country is being led by a fool.

I'm depressed so many people don't understand what preventing the NHS being overwhelmed really means and do they moan about restrictions.

Crikey.
I should give myself warnings before reading threads in public.

I had a similar reaction in church.
it was one of our fist services back, and we had Thine Be The Glory as a hymn.
And I couldn't sing through the tears - because last Easter we couldn't be together to sing it in church!

[waaaaaaaaaah]

We've got the theatre & DD's Sunday school service/show on Sunday, I'll definitely be shedding a discreet tear. And Christmas Day with 9 others, including my new baby DN 🥰

Feeling shit at the prospect at another disappointing birthday (feb) so making the most of Christmas this year!

I am dreading another January of entertaining the children outside in the fucking cold

If my DD's preschool singing performance goes ahead I might cry (so far it's still happening). I just want her to have normal Christmas fun. She's really excited.

Ohh. I am taking my children to the pantomime on Christmas Eve. I have booked my youngest child a birthday party in the second week of January. And every time I think about either one of the events and their sad little faces if yet another exciting thing gets cancelled from their lives, I find it hard not to weep in anticipation of it.

Actually reading some of this makes me realise I’m not alone in these difficult feelings. I’m finding it really hard this time to articulate . I think I’m in denial that it will all turn out to be nothing. Comparing it to wars or the Yemen etc is ridiculous because every bodies experiences in life are all relative.
I have teenagers and I worry about my daughter as this will massively send her backwards- she stopped engaging last time with life and just laid in her bed. It’s taken 6 months almost to get her back to normal again and get rid of panic attacks and social anxiety at a difficult age when you would normally be socialising a lot and learning those skills. I feel for all of the Mum’s with new babies and toddlers and school age who want to just experience all of those things Mum’s usually get to see - the bits that bring the joy to parenting and motherhood, the nativities, the face to face crib services , Carol concerts , little angels - I want my teenagers to relish seeing their friends. I feel my social life has massively deteriorated since Covid. Sadly Two people in my social group became massively aggressive and shaming to another family after a minor disgression and literally ruined their lives in the community. It all became so horrible ugly and complicated so I had to make a tough decision to step back which means not seeing people as much or in different circles. It’s so sad the way it’s made some people respond so harshly and with such judgement. The thing that brought a lump to my throat was the Veterans Day when everyone despite a lockdown brought little covered tables into front gardens with a few drinks and decorations. People still tried so hard to celebrate and didn’t give up. It’s the way people still try despite everything to make the best of it that brings me to tears. Sometimes I want to scream at the mask and throw and stamp on sanitizer when I see it. I was lucky to have a carefree childhood. I just cannot believe they will take away our freedom again. I’ve begun to realise how important freedom really is. I’m not sure how I will get through another lockdown if there is one. Im usually resilient and dealt well with the previous but I’ve reached my limit now. I worry I’m going to lose my will to live.

It is so hard. The constant relentless work/looking for work whilst having anything fun cancelled and dealing with loss, life, illness, money worries with very little or no release will inevitably take its toll.

After cancelling a trip to see dear friends so as not to jeopardize getting to DS's nursery nativity, if it does go ahead I will be in bits with various emotions. Sadly I don't think it is going to after chatting with the manager who was trying to explain why so kindly whilst fighting back her own tears.

The nativity is not the biggest thing in the whole of this. We've had losses, missed funerals, been dealing with some hard mental health issues. But the nativity the thing that is likely to tip me emotionally.

OP, I get it and thank you. Sending love to everyone on here who is struggling in whatever way