I think last year while it was scary, it seemed contained and that there would be an end. That this year we would be back to normal.
But this year, with the variants, the relative slowness of the reality of getting everyone vaccinated, and how badly it lurched out of control in the late autumn, how slow it is going back down to what we had accepted as "normal" in the summer from the last wave.....there is a lot less hope around. Added to that the exhortations not to travel at all this year, no decisions around exams, looks like reopening will be delayed, increasing restrictions on travel happening just this week....
Last year as a temporary thing, missing our main holiday seemed do-able.
This year, we have been stuck working from home for a year. Haven't seen friends for a year (or maybe seen a couple once or twice). Haven't been out for a datenight dinner with DH all year, and the one family dinner we had was stressful. Haven't been able to go to a coffee shop with a book to get away from the house. Haven't seen my parents since July. I have not even been able to go food shopping, even with the stresses which that entails, on my own. I had so much work to do and so little other option for time off (especially with DD lurking all the time and making so many demands if I am not occupied with work - she will accept work as a way to not be available, but sleep is something that apparently I don't need, or peace in a bath, or even to sit and watch the main tv because that is the Xbox screen.....) that I am currently carrying 12 days leave over into this year.
DH is starting to crack up with everything too. And DD is withdrawing from life.
And there is no clear pathway to all of that ending.
So this year I absolutely need to take more time off, pressures of work notwithstanding. And pressures of DD...
But I think that there is unlikely to be that chance of peace. We won't be able to go away as we are used to. And if we do get to go on a break like last year, there are likely to be most of the extended family there this year.
So I will dream...but know that I am likely to just have some time off work but with nowhere to go and nothing to do.