Does anyone else feel like they are just watching things implode?

[StealthPolarBear]

Things are just getting worse and worse and January is going to be hell

@Hardbackwriter so sorry you feel that way though I understand as I had a baby just before Australia's first lockdown started. I live in Melbourne so we then had a second lockdown soon after. My baby spent the first 5 months of her life in lockdown and at this stage won't meet her Grandparents until she's 8 months (assuming all goes to plan). It is hard in many ways. But the silver lunging is that you can just rest and bond without the pressures of getting out and about, without the pressure of keeping the house presentable for visitors etc. if you plan on breastfeeding you can get the hang of it in privacy and you can get into a bit of a routine of sorts. I hope you're able to find some silver linings like I have.

I manage care homes and I love my job. But this has been the toughest year and fur the first time I don't think I can face work tomorrow. I have to go. We are so short staffed with people testing positive left right and centre-but i has the first anxiety attack I've had in years last night-it's just the constant responsibility of it-and trying to be up all the time for my poor teams. I'm weary and I don't think I can do it.

It just feels like March again

It feels worse because we’ve been through so much shit seemingly for nothing.

Yes we have a vaccine now but will it even protect against this new fucking strain?

I know it won’t be a popular view on here but I’m so angry at China for starting this fucking nightmare in the first place.

@Fuckitsstillraining

I'm not in the UK but my mil and sil are in different parts of London, my bil is in Manchester, do the new restrictions mean my mil is to spend Christmas alone? Can't imagine she will obey if thats whats asked of her. She travelled to Manchester only a few weeks ago and went out for dinner with my bil and a different friend each night, no one thought that might be risky, sil laughed at us here in Ireland last March because we were in lockdown and she was taking her kids to the theatre in London, later in the year as soon as restrictions lifted she was at a theme park, again no one seemed to think it was risky, same family took a few weeks in Turkey in late summer because they 'needed it after the stress of covid', they have absolutely no financial worries, high earners, big house and garden so weren't on top of each other, I really hope things improve in the UK soon particularly in Northern Ireland as the hospitals there seem to be struggling.

She wasn’t out for dinner in Manchester with a different friend each night only a few weeks ago, restaurants here have been closed for two months.

Another here who thinks having been through and come out of suicidal depressions in the past has really helped me through this.

Possibly my job helps too. As much as I don't feel schools are safe and we're struggling with with changes and restrictions wrestling teenagers into learning is my normal I guess and it's always so hectic at work that you don't have time to think and dwell on things. And teenagers are fantastically irreverent to everything including Covid which likely keeps my spirits up more than if I were with adults talking about the latest news.

I'm lucky to have been left in tier 2 despite tier 4 creeping in around us so can still see family at Christmas for one day.

I can't think of January yet. Can only imagine how tough it's going to be in schools.

We are in tier 3, no change to Christmas plans other than we'd hoped to have a walk as 8 of us, now not allowed. No real change to our lives as we rarely ate out but tbh I was hoping that would get better. I don't think there's a light at the end of the tunnel, I'm glad so many do.

Please remember the vaccines are being done.
Things are progressing, but it’s winter and whilst people are waiting to be vaccinated, the infection rate will still rise and people will still die.
Boris was advised to lock us down now to prevent hospitals being overwhelmed over New Year.
Things are getting better.

But the vaccines don’t appear to be happening very fast.

I’m in one of the groups. Evening standard had a vaccine timing checker. I’m due to be done in June. I’m not even in the bottom group.

@nonono1

It just feels like March again

It feels worse because we’ve been through so much shit seemingly for nothing.

Yes we have a vaccine now but will it even protect against this new fucking strain?

I know it won’t be a popular view on here but I’m so angry at China for starting this fucking nightmare in the first place.

Hear hear. China has really got away with this. Where is the condemnation ? I've slated our government enough , same as other people have, but I understand it's not entirely their fault too. China should pay , but they won't. They should at least apologize or try to clean up their act on animal welfare and human rights. People will flame me for saying this I know. Just angry about all of it and upset for friends who have a shit time.

Definitely feels worse than March, Christmas kept us going. Now there’s no novelty value I’m fully aware now of how lockdown and living within support bar a week in the summer has put our family into crisis point. I know how home schooling works and the stress it brings. There is no end in sight and I dread to think the state we will be in if the end ever comes.

There's a 60 minutes on China (Australian panorama type show) if you need it.

I know this is a low bar and may sound like cold comfort but remember it can't get much worse (obviously it can with deaths, hospitals etc but in terms of it's impact on our daily lives it can't get much worse).

We've done and can do lockdowns, we've done and can do (much as we might not want to) working and looking after our kids and trying to get them to do home learning at the same time, we've done everything shut and no social life etc.

Stealth Honestly, objectively there is light at the end of the tunnel. I was (once) a scientist, and I think it is fantastic how scientists from across the world have come together so quickly to deal with the virus.

it's also shown me just how selfish and thick some people in all countries can be but thankfully I don't know people like that

Yeah realising how thick people are is disturbing. I mean I knew people were thick but it's like how you know some people beat their kids but when you see some twat loudly losing it and slapping their child in tesco you get a sense of how really awful they must be in private if they behave this way in public and that awful feeling of powerlessness.

Likewise with thickness and selfishness, and on the other end self righteousness, this year. Doesn't make you feel massively hopeful about the human race.

@nonono1

It just feels like March again

It feels worse because we’ve been through so much shit seemingly for nothing.

Yes we have a vaccine now but will it even protect against this new fucking strain?

I know it won’t be a popular view on here but I’m so angry at China for starting this fucking nightmare in the first place.

I agree about China 🤬

@Mumsnut

What cheered me immeasurably today was Chris Whitty’s demeanour. For the last few pressers he has looked ill at ease, worn, fractious. Today, he was confident, crisp, full of beans. I thought to myself: there is a man who is finally in agreement with the government’s plan of action

We thought the opposite. My OH said "this is worrying! Chris Whitty looks scared shitless"

I have no words to express my loathing for the Chinese Communist Party.

@Somethingvague

And I can't agree anymore with the 'let's just follow the rules' brigade. I don't mean that as in I want to flout them, but I just don't think it's working. Unless you literally imprison people then viruses will always spread, it's what they do; they were around before humanity and they'll be around after us too.

I agree. Viruses will always do what viruses do. They want to transmit easily, infect easily and ideally not kill their hosts as that would kill the virus.

Anyone who thought wearing non medical grade masks was going to make a blind bit of difference were deluded, for a multitude of reasons. Social distancing to a degree might reduce transmission but short of everyone spending their days rolling around in zorbs it would never stop it!

Plus, the issue with the NHS is entirely different to the fact cases are happening. I understand the link but remember, there are still over 64 million (approx) people who HAVENT caught it & the majority of those probably never will.

Blaming people for catching or transiting a virus is bonkers. We didn't blame people for the flu, or whooping cough, or chicken pox, etc etc. But what annoys me more as they only blame the younger folk, an old person who catches it is a poor victim of someone else's not following the ROOLSZ.

@ArseInTheCoOpWindow the vaccines are being delivered by the thousands daily. Not in the news because we are just quietly administering them. The first lot are due back in the first week of Jan for the second dose but it will certainly take many many months to complete

I think it's the relentlessness of it that is so depressing.

My 82yo dad was diagnosed as being 'end of life' in May having been bedridden since early March. He is still hanging in there but has deteriorated massively. Aside from twice daily carer visits and brief spell in a nursing home by way of respite in August (which was more stressful than having him at home due to my mum's demands and hysterics) we have had very little support and I have now had to put my career on hold to become a full time carer.

Between Covid and caring responsibilities (I'm and only child and single parent), there is absolutely no light at the end of the tunnel.

Gosh that sounds tough Minty. Single parent here too so I get the lack of 'slack' there is at the best of times let alone with all that.

There is light at the end of the tunnel - there always is - you're just in the really dark bit currently. Hold on.

I’ve had enough now. I’ve worked non-stop throughout (police), and we are really seeing the mental health impacts from repeated lockdowns and restrictions. Suicides are through the roof and I’ve seen more death in the last few months than anyone should see in a lifetime. I caught Covid at work from a colleague. I’m working on Christmas Day and therefore we were having our Christmas lunch with my mum on Boxing Day. Boris has put an end to that. And to top it all off I’ve had my rest days cancelled today for the rest of the week so we can be part of an increased presence due to Tier 4 (I live in a Tier 3 area). I’m fed up of seeing the incompetence of the government, and the media whipping everyone up into a blame game frenzy. My own mental health is absolutely shot and I don’t feel like I have much else to give, either at home or at work.

Thanks @TheHoneyBadger

I keep trying to look on the positive side...DD is a teen so fairly independent but equally having issues with her dad and in her GCSE year.

And I suppose that Covid means I'm not having to watch everyone else have loads of fun while I'm dealing with it all.

I'm just terrified that by the time the Covid situation starts to improve I'm going to be left with a dependent, bereaved and frankly challenging elderly mum and still not be able to move on.

It's really not what I'd hoped or planned for post-divorce, but I guess there are plenty of people out there coping with worse.

@SunshineCake

Too many people not following the rules which is why we are where we are. Yet I've just read another thread where people are complaining. Lifes are at stake. Hard now so we are all alive to have Christmas 2021 with family.

No, it's not. A virus and an incompetent government are why were here. And guess what it's fucking shit. Stop fucking complaining about people moaning. People's lives are falling to bits. At this point I don't even believe Christmas next year will be normal because I don't trust Boris to not fuck it all up again several times before then. Oh and a lot of people won't be alive next year because their mental health will have killed them. Think about that.

@IfIHadAHeart

I’ve had enough now. I’ve worked non-stop throughout (police), and we are really seeing the mental health impacts from repeated lockdowns and restrictions. Suicides are through the roof and I’ve seen more death in the last few months than anyone should see in a lifetime. I caught Covid at work from a colleague. I’m working on Christmas Day and therefore we were having our Christmas lunch with my mum on Boxing Day. Boris has put an end to that. And to top it all off I’ve had my rest days cancelled today for the rest of the week so we can be part of an increased presence due to Tier 4 (I live in a Tier 3 area). I’m fed up of seeing the incompetence of the government, and the media whipping everyone up into a blame game frenzy. My own mental health is absolutely shot and I don’t feel like I have much else to give, either at home or at work.

Thank you for everything you are doing.

Thanks @KnowingMeKnowingYule

I just find the current headlines about “extra officers” bloody annoying. There are no extras hiding in a cupboard waiting for an opportunity to come out. It’s just cancelled rest days and cancelled leave.