Worriedmum999
I am sorry you are feeling frightened and worried. This is not a nice feeling. Bring on the flack mumsnetters but personally i don't think it helps someone who is so worrried to be told to 'calm down' etc.
So I'm going to offer something Worriedmum999.
There is an 'upside' to worrying. And the good news is it can actually be a strenght. Even though I can't spell this morning...Reason being that if you are focussed on something then it can make you more careful and aware, and in fact prepared.
So like one of the teachers on here who mentioned remote learning, personally I'm prepared now to do distance learning at home again with my DD. Literally from one day to the next if we have to stay at home again.
I'm telling myself it can't possbly be as bad as March when the wave came and took us (not the government because they knew about it then and should have seen it coming) by surprise.
There has been I feel next to no empathy or understanding in some quarters, and i'm not talking about this board about how hard that job was and is, for us parents, and as you say with the pandemic all the fall out from changes in mental health and lack of support at the moment.
So as coping strategy you might wish to borrow mine 'preparation is the key to success' which I borrowed from a teacher somewhere along the line.
And please know you are not the only one who worries about this, ir is reasonable to worry, but i hope it helps you focus.
I heard one mother speaking about her daughter who had OCD and gave birth to a prem baby in lockdown. The mother said that in fact under those circumstances, the OCD was not a shortcoming but a strength. Wonder if that helps?