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Lockdown depression anyone else?

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 17:51

Hi

Since the pandemic I’ve been feeling really depressed. Nothing makes me happy anymore. It started off ok but as the weeks have gone on I’ve got more and more depressed and just feel trapped. Not enjoying life at all at the moment. Suffered terrible anxiety and just going through the motions. When the time comes to go to bed it’s a relief sometimes but even then I toss and turn most of the night.

Can anyone relate?

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 17:52

P.s I’ve got three children and living at home with my partner too.

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user1019273703 · 07/07/2020 17:53

Yes. I have suffered with anxiety on and off last 2 years but feel like this is something else. Feel like there is no escape and no enjoyment in anything. I have worked through it which I feel thankful for because I am not sure how I would be if I hadn't. Hope things improve for you, anxiety and depression are awful things to deal with

frozendaisy · 07/07/2020 18:06

Middle of May I was a proper trolley lost it. But there's not much you can do. So I have been clearing out more of the house and trying to enjoy what we have at home the most. It's not easy. But it is what it is. Can't see another mental way of looking at it really.

Hope things improve.

ilovebagpuss · 07/07/2020 18:38

Yes totally agree and can sympathise. I’ve continued to work so I know I’m lucky in that I don’t have money worries but my work life has changed beyond recognition. No office or colleagues lots of redundancies I’m doing random bits of work so don’t know if I’m heading for redundancy or not either way it’s horrible.
My DD’s are at home a lot on their own although not a full day but I’m constantly torn. Every day is similar and the gloomy weather has made it worse.
It’s hard trying to keep spirits up even the daily boring walk has dropped off now.
I know there are some things opening up it’s not so much about that for me it’s been the lack of school and the huge work changes.
Perhaps you need to see your GP ? Does your other half understand? Sharing it can lighten the load.

annieannietomjoe · 07/07/2020 18:42

Yes...I started antidepressants 3 weeks ago and that feeling has gone!

TabbyStar · 07/07/2020 18:43

I don't exactly feel depressed but I can't be arsed to do anything.

SugarMiceInTheRain · 07/07/2020 18:43

Yes. Near the beginning I coped better than I thought I would, tried to look on the bright side, but I live in Leicester and since they locked us down here again I have really struggled. Could barely drag myself out of bed, despite having children to get up and look after. Wet and windy here too so the prospect of a walk (just locally again, back to essential travel only) doesn't exactly appeal.

Jrobhatch29 · 07/07/2020 18:48

Me. Ive cried most of the day. On my own all day with a newborn, a 4 year old and a 7 year old. Trying to home school the older two inbetween feeding the baby. I am exhausted and had enough now. Time to phone the GPs I think.

CoronaIsShit · 07/07/2020 18:55

Just starting to kick in for me too now. I’m also a long term anxiety sufferer with OCD so I’m surprised I’m not a basket case already! The good weather earlier on certainly helped my mood but it’s been pants for a few weeks now which hasn’t.

We hired a skip last week to clear out the garage and declutter the house which I was strangely excited about doing until it I realised how much work there was to do Grin but it was well worth it and a great motivator to do a big clean up. Feeling a bit deflated now with the thought of another two months, at least, of all the DC being at home 24/7 and not getting a minutes peace as they constantly want to talk at me (4 of them) and leave mess in their wake.

I’m grateful we’re all ok though. Mindfulness helps in trying to find some thing to appreciate in the day (even if it’s only that there’s food in the cupboards), not thinking too far ahead and worrying about ‘what ifs’. You can download meditation apps. A brisk daily walk/jog on my own with headphones on playing loud music has also been a lifesaver for me especially as my anxiety massively improved when I became a gym bunny but that’s been thrown out of the window too although I’ve been emailed to say my gym is opening soon which I am very much looking forward to.

When my mind starts to get out of control (or goes off to the circus as I call it)I try to remember that things could be a lot worse in that our food supply chain is still working, society hadn’t completely broken down, we’re not turning into flesh eating zombies as in Legend and the probability is that everything will get back to normal and the pandemic lockdown of 2020 will be spoken of in folklore for generations to come. Probably not helpful but still.

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:00

@user1019273703

Yes. I have suffered with anxiety on and off last 2 years but feel like this is something else. Feel like there is no escape and no enjoyment in anything. I have worked through it which I feel thankful for because I am not sure how I would be if I hadn't. Hope things improve for you, anxiety and depression are awful things to deal with
Sorry to hear your struggling too. I’ve had three kids under 10 at home too so it’s been harder than normal trying to homeschool them etc. They’ve been ok throughout it all which I’m glad of. I’m just really struggling now. X
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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:02

@frozendaisy

Middle of May I was a proper trolley lost it. But there's not much you can do. So I have been clearing out more of the house and trying to enjoy what we have at home the most. It's not easy. But it is what it is. Can't see another mental way of looking at it really.

Hope things improve.

I am the other way round. The beginning of lockdown I was ok quite enjoyed being at home with the other half and the kids. Baking etc. Then it got to the point it all got boring and Groundhog Day set in. Hope it does improve soon. Can’t cope with this same thing everyday
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Orangeblossom78 · 07/07/2020 19:03

Coronaisshit sounds like you are using some techniques from managing things in the past for this situation. I have tried using CBT and mindfulness and finding that helps at times. and avoiding too much news.

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:03

@TabbyStar

I don't exactly feel depressed but I can't be arsed to do anything.
I want to do things but don’t know what to do with myself as nothing brings me joy anymore. Can’t even concentrate on a film or anything!
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Orangeblossom78 · 07/07/2020 19:04

Not long till the home schooling stops being sent through so that might help a bit I guess. We aren't doing much now anyway

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:04

@Orangeblossom78

Coronaisshit sounds like you are using some techniques from managing things in the past for this situation. I have tried using CBT and mindfulness and finding that helps at times. and avoiding too much news.
At the beginning few weeks I was checking the news probably borderlining on obsessively and it was making me stressed so I’ve stopped that. Now I’m just low I think my brain has said enough is enough of all this worry
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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:05

@Orangeblossom78

Not long till the home schooling stops being sent through so that might help a bit I guess. We aren't doing much now anyway
The home schooling has been ok but just getting bored and fed up of the same thing day in day out ...
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HeresMe · 07/07/2020 19:07

I often go for daily walks sometimes crying, I've found it a huge struggle. Very close once to ending it all once.

Yeah I've struggled but since this metal health doesn't matter anymore

RoseMartha · 07/07/2020 19:10

Yes feel depressed on and off during the day. Ocd tendencies worse bc of covid. Confused

On top of my normal stresses of juggling kids and elderly parents and currently wfh and abuse from ex , while waiting for house sale to go through post divorce and anxious abt moving to a flat.

Sometimes it all feels too much.

Orangeblossom78 · 07/07/2020 19:11

I feel just the same about the news, like my brain is just work out with it all and can't cope any more. I have started taking prozac again after being off it before this. Just half the dose though. I was hoping not to.

Trying to look after myself e.g. a bath bit can't concentrate either very much. or even feel energy to go out for a walk.

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:20

@HeresMe

I often go for daily walks sometimes crying, I've found it a huge struggle. Very close once to ending it all once.

Yeah I've struggled but since this metal health doesn't matter anymore

I know how you feel. I often just go and sit in the bathroom or the bedroom so I can sit and cry away from the kids.

I feel hopeless about it all too but there’s something at the back of my mind telling me it’ll get better? Hang in there & I’m here if you need to talk x

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user1019273703 · 07/07/2020 19:20

@RoseMartha I hope everything goes ok for you. I sold house, moved 90 miles and started a new job following a long divorce process during lockdown. It made it all the more stressful but it will be worth it in the end.

Pepper70 · 07/07/2020 19:21

Stay strong, we will hopefully all come out of this. Walking is great and a good old cry sometimes is good for us. Will think of you, I too have been feeling a little delicate of late.

kittensarecute · 07/07/2020 19:26

I've had some very dark days and thoughts. I've hated every minute of lockdown.

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 19:42

@kittensarecute

I've had some very dark days and thoughts. I've hated every minute of lockdown.
Awful isn’t it. It feels so isolating even with family around. Feels kinda like a weird version of imprisonment in your own home
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TabbyStar · 07/07/2020 19:49

I want to do things but don’t know what to do with myself as nothing brings me joy anymore. Can’t even concentrate on a film or anything!

I've never been good at watching telly, but yes same, I could play piano or do something crafty or read but there doesn't seem any point. I think it's thrown up how reliant I am on walks and coffee with my friends to pass the time, though that's started again. I'm missing the library too as I'm trying not to spend money as my income is massively reduced. I've downloaded some library audio books but that's not the same.

I have had some bad days, being left with no Govt support and trying to save my business has triggered some old feelings of abandonment.

Going out walking helps, on my own or with someone, so this weather isn't great.