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Lockdown depression anyone else?

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 17:51

Hi

Since the pandemic I’ve been feeling really depressed. Nothing makes me happy anymore. It started off ok but as the weeks have gone on I’ve got more and more depressed and just feel trapped. Not enjoying life at all at the moment. Suffered terrible anxiety and just going through the motions. When the time comes to go to bed it’s a relief sometimes but even then I toss and turn most of the night.

Can anyone relate?

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RoseMartha · 07/07/2020 21:07

@user1019273703 thank you.

My autistic teen just had massive rant at me about how awful her life is, mainly teen reasons linked to autistic issues , has made me feel even more depressed.

I hope your new job is going well and you have settled in your new home.

purpleme12 · 07/07/2020 22:15

I'm depressed
It's situational.
It's because of all this
I'm usually so good with my child. I'm not anymore
I cry so much more
I can't cope with the thought of going on buses and trains with a mask but I don't drive and normally I'd go everywhere without a second thought
All the fun's gone
I hate working from home. I feel so isolated. I hate staying away from people
I'm so upset

choccybuttonshelpeverything · 07/07/2020 22:38

Yes I got referred to gp by mental health liaison today as said I was triggering for a crisis. 3 kids under 5, including one born few days before lockdown. workaholic husband. Binge eating.... I pick up antidepressants tomorrow

choccybuttonshelpeverything · 07/07/2020 22:38

Yes I got referred to gp by mental health liaison today as said I was triggering for a crisis. 3 kids under 5, including one born few days before lockdown. workaholic husband. Binge eating.... I pick up antidepressants tomorrow

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 22:49

@choccybuttonshelpeverything

Yes I got referred to gp by mental health liaison today as said I was triggering for a crisis. 3 kids under 5, including one born few days before lockdown. workaholic husband. Binge eating.... I pick up antidepressants tomorrow
Kinda know how you feel apart from the newborn... must be harder for you with 3 under 5 ... mine are 9, 7 and 3.

Finding it even more difficult as the weeks are going on. I feel isolated too not seeing anyone else apart from the kids and my partner on a daily basis.

He is now back to part time work after being furloughed.

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Vampyhooch · 07/07/2020 22:50

@purpleme12

I'm depressed It's situational. It's because of all this I'm usually so good with my child. I'm not anymore I cry so much more I can't cope with the thought of going on buses and trains with a mask but I don't drive and normally I'd go everywhere without a second thought All the fun's gone I hate working from home. I feel so isolated. I hate staying away from people I'm so upset
Can kinda relate to some of this. I do drive but even going out now just isn’t the same with the social distancing and everyone acting super cautious with masks etc. Feel trapped indoors so try and get out but then it’s weird out so feel a bit lost also
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Violetroselily · 07/07/2020 23:42

I was diagnosed with depression 4 years ago and have been back on antidepressants since October/November last year. ADs were working well and I had been in pretty good place pre-lockdown.

I'm now struggling along. Work is stressful and is taking over my life - I've been WFH throughout and live alone, so most of my daily interactions are just talking about work. I miss the general chit chat in the office - what people did at the weekend, what they watched on TV - as right now my awful job is taking over my life.

Like some of you have said, it's hard to find joy in anything at the moment. Even now as things are reopening I have little desire to see anyone or do anything.

Contemplating speaking to my GP about increasing my dosage, but I'm worried that might be an overreaction.

purpleme12 · 07/07/2020 23:45

Yes I just can't cope with working by myself and I don't understand people who can
I don't think I've ever felt so alone
And I feel like I'm letting my child down because we had such a good life before this

blubellsarebells · 07/07/2020 23:58

I miss my life.
At the start my anxiety was the worst its ever been, sweats, being sick, couldn't move.
Now most days I feel ok but my sleep pattern is fucked and im having some very strange and disturbing nightmares.
I wake up exhaused most days.
Worrying about my job and money, no motivation to do anything other than eat crap and drink vodka.
Ive put on i guess a stone since march.
I wish I could go back on anti anxiety meds, if i lose my job I'll definitely need them.

crosseyedMary · 08/07/2020 00:01

I hear you, my state of mind is not the best either☹️
I feel like the only true way forward is just to accept it and get on with it but I don't want to accept it because I don't want this to be life from now on
I think it might help in some ways if the rules were stricter and then we would be forced to comply and accept it but then again British people are bolshie...might be civil unrest😳

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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 08:44

@Violetroselily

I was diagnosed with depression 4 years ago and have been back on antidepressants since October/November last year. ADs were working well and I had been in pretty good place pre-lockdown.

I'm now struggling along. Work is stressful and is taking over my life - I've been WFH throughout and live alone, so most of my daily interactions are just talking about work. I miss the general chit chat in the office - what people did at the weekend, what they watched on TV - as right now my awful job is taking over my life.

Like some of you have said, it's hard to find joy in anything at the moment. Even now as things are reopening I have little desire to see anyone or do anything.

Contemplating speaking to my GP about increasing my dosage, but I'm worried that might be an overreaction.

I don’t think it would be an overreaction. Your mental health is important. X
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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 08:45

@crosseyedMary

I hear you, my state of mind is not the best either☹️ I feel like the only true way forward is just to accept it and get on with it but I don't want to accept it because I don't want this to be life from now on I think it might help in some ways if the rules were stricter and then we would be forced to comply and accept it but then again British people are bolshie...might be civil unrest😳
I don’t think this is sustainable long term though it’s gonna cause a new pandemic of mental health problems and then the NHS will struggle to cope...
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Mabelface · 08/07/2020 08:51

I've gone back onto meds as my anxiety and depression were spiralling. I was in a good place prior to lockdown. Currently working through the side effects and I'm knackered.

Tartan333 · 08/07/2020 08:53

Sorry you feel this way OP. I do too. I,was worse at the start of lockdown, in shock I think. I generally feel numb with the occasional bout of tears. Nothing is enjoyable or fun, this is purely an existence.

ChardonnaysPetDragon · 08/07/2020 08:55

I’ve been finding it really hard in the last few weeks. I was optimistic to start with, after the initial shock, but not it’s all dragging and the fucking talk of ‘new normal’ really gets on my Rita.

KayEngel · 08/07/2020 09:02

I want to scream when the "new normal" is mentioned. No way is this going to be my way of life. However, I'm optimistic that a vaccine will be available by the end of 2020. Hang on in there. My main worry is what this has done to my 14 year olds education.

ChardonnaysPetDragon · 08/07/2020 09:09

I can’t even imagine e how worried parents with school age children must be. And how difficult it is for them to manage work and home education and child care.

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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 09:17

@Mabelface

I've gone back onto meds as my anxiety and depression were spiralling. I was in a good place prior to lockdown. Currently working through the side effects and I'm knackered.
I’m trying to get some sense out of my doctors about meds. They are iffy starting me on them though as I already suffer with an irregular heartbeat which has been evident on ecg so they are having to be cautious. Not sure what I can do if I can’t get meds though?
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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 09:18

@ChardonnaysPetDragon

I’ve been finding it really hard in the last few weeks. I was optimistic to start with, after the initial shock, but not it’s all dragging and the fucking talk of ‘new normal’ really gets on my Rita.
Yeah I found the first few weeks ok was nice to relax and slow down in comparison to the rushing around 24-7 but now I miss it. I’m bored of this. The same thing every single day. It’s a sad existence at the moment and I hope it changes soon. Losing hope at the moment
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purpleme12 · 08/07/2020 09:19

Yes I agree about the new normal
Absolutely hate it
It depresses me in itself

I desperately want to know when we'll be able to stop wearing masks on public transport
I had to wear one for the first time at a hospital appointment yesterday and it was awful. I couldn't relax, so restricted breathing, kept pulling it out from my mouth
I don't drive and the and I can't look forward to going anywhere when the mask wearing fills with dread

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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 09:19

@KayEngel

I want to scream when the "new normal" is mentioned. No way is this going to be my way of life. However, I'm optimistic that a vaccine will be available by the end of 2020. Hang on in there. My main worry is what this has done to my 14 year olds education.
I’m worried about the educational impact too.

This can’t be the new normal it just isn’t sustainable. So many people would end up cracking up.

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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 09:32

@Tartan333

Sorry you feel this way OP. I do too. I,was worse at the start of lockdown, in shock I think. I generally feel numb with the occasional bout of tears. Nothing is enjoyable or fun, this is purely an existence.
Sorry your feeling like this too. At the start of lockdown I was sooooo anxious. Now I just feel depressed with a dash of panic here and there.

I can deffo relate to the numb feeling. Kinda like your just going through the motions without any emotions about anything? Can’t feel happiness, excitement etc just feeling really flat?

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Mabelface · 08/07/2020 10:47

@vampyhooch they should be able to offer you something I would have thought.

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Vampyhooch · 08/07/2020 10:49

[quote Mabelface]@vampyhooch they should be able to offer you something I would have thought.[/quote]
Hopefully as the other things like mindfulness positive thinking and all that jazz haven’t made a blind bit of difference

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IAintentDead · 08/07/2020 12:09

The long term lockdown has and will have a much more devastating long term effect than the virus.

We were told it was to give the NHS chance to catch up and flatten the curve. The kids should have been back to school after Easter and the lockdown should only have lasted 3 weeks - 6 at most.

People now are not only afraid of the virus they are scared of going out. The economy is plummeting and we will be suffering from the lock down for far longer than the virus is any real issue