Possible trigger thread..
Since lockdown began I’ve been off of work as my son’s nursery closed & my dad who was able to have him when I worked, is diabetic so was classed as vulnerable so had been shielding.
I’ve been off of work since March, I’m a HCA at a hospital.
My relationship ended recently, even with attempts to reconcile with him - he has ignored me deliberately, making me feel worthless.
Then today I texted my 9 year old cousins mum to wish him happy birthday and she retaliated at me being nasty because I forgot her other son’s birthday in March - he isn’t my cousin as different dads.
I also lost my Mum back in September last year to breast cancer and still struggling with her death.
Just got notice if I don’t go back to work I will get fired but what am I supposed to do just leave my 3 year old at home by himself?!
I honestly can’t cope anymore and feeling suicidal tbh. I feel like everyone would be much better off without me. I’m worthless, I have nothing to give, everything I do is wrong. I just can’t cope anymore and I can’t talk to my family about this