Day 45/46 - I know I'm a few days off, but I hope it's okay me posting here?
I've been really struggling for the last few days again, still with the tight, pulling, almost strangling feeling of my upper chest and throat. Feels like I'm being choked from the inside out. Plus the usual palpitations, heart feeling like it's about to beat right out of my chest, feeling like an elephant is sitting on my chest, shortness of breath, cold hands and feet. No cough or temp. These are the same symptoms I've had since day 1, and have waxed and waned all the way through. They seem to have returned with a vengeance in the last week or so though. So depressing.
I've been off work all this time, since 23rd March, never feeling well enough to opt to go back in. Not been furloughed unfortunately, as my job is being covered by someone else. Also, I am part time, and I don't qualify for SSP (just miss out). I am supposed to be going back w/c 18th May, but if I feel like this, how on earth can I?! It's a very physical job, too. I am worried if I can't go back, I will have no rights (though I do have a contract of employment). But, how do I formally get signed off indefinitely, when my GP surgery won't see me because it's highly likely to be covid19, and they just tell me to recover at home??!! Meanwhile....no income!
No idea what to do anymore. It's so depressing. Every little chore sets me back :(