Anyone else just lost motivation now ?

[SouthWestmom]

I've just given up. Still in pyjamas, gave up yesterday. Dh is still finding stuff to do and is annoyed at me.

Boys are struggling with online school; I've realised one of them is just lost now - no plan for his health treatment, so behind already with school. I'm sure the others will be ok when this is lifted.

Done all the jobs with the novelty of free time.

Have no enthusiasm to write that book, start yoga, etc.

I know what works but it all seems pointless. Can't see my family, realised people I thought were friends haven't contacted me to check in, starting to feel quite depressed at life generally.

@Sparklingbrook
Just an aside ...in the Carry On films you mentioned Bristols ... did you know that was rhyming slang for Bristol Cities = titties . Doesn't make it any better but just a useless bit of information.

I really can’t be bothered with anything at the moment .
I finished chemo in February and had a mastectomy in March so am now clear of cancer and I know it’s awful but I am thinking so what ?
I should be happy but I am just so flat . Shielding as I am still having immunology so cant even go to shops to look at other people .
And so bored with my lonely walks even though I live in a beautiful rural place and don’t meet anyone .
Meh !
It’s all just so meh !

Congratulations trumpton on your good health; what a relief to have achieved that ore lockdown.

Meh is such a good word.

I'm sure most of us will get through this, it's just difficult

That makes sense now @Trumpton.

It is all meh.

I have just put the patio set out complete with cushions and parasol. A right faff. But I have come in again now as I don't know if I want to sit out.

Yes I’m pleased they did! :)

Pleased to report I did at least manage to do a little time on the exercise bike last night so I don’t feel I completely wasted the day. If I can just do one even tiny thing a day I can keep going but yesterday probably was the hardest in a few weeks (I don’t count the first part of lockdown - I got what I think was the virus about a week beforehand and was unable to do anything)

It must be so hard feeling that you were just starting to improve life and get some help for your boy — and then this.

It’s cruel. It’s not your lack of motivation that’s the problem. I should think that half your energy is going into not screaming in frustration at the universe.

Can i just say please dont berate friends for not checking in. Everyone has their own struggle and their own ways of coping. Have you checked in with them? It works both ways.

Thank you lance yes I think it's compounded that I spent the last two years coming to terms with it and then wading through systems to achieve stuff for him - then this.

Lottie I'm expressing private thoughts anonymously. I haven't berated anyone; it's just added to how I feel that people I thought were friends are still posting on social media, tagging people in those challenges etc and either ignoring messages from me or not responding to anything I post. It's pretty clear how unimportant I am, and that's not a great feeling.

Lotus, sorry not Lottie